Clairevoyance

Moved

2011-01-08T12:51:00.001+08:00

Just moved HERE. See you! ^_^

Moving Advisory

2011-01-05T18:16:00.004+08:00

I'm actually thinking of moving to a new blog. No, actually I'm not thinking anymore, I've finally decided to make a new one. During Christmas vacation, I went through my old posts (it's a habit, just to see how much I and things around me have changed) and I found them boring. Well, I actually recollected some past experiences by reading them (at least my blog is doing its function as a memory storage device/backup for my bad memory) but the way they were written was really boring. Also, my tags have turned into a mess (you know, people change and the way I classify things also change over the years). Besides, I said that starting this year, I'll be making my posts more interesting so moving to a new blog makes sense for me.

Actually, I was a bit hesitant to move because this blog's archives goes way back September 2005 (although I started blogging March 2004, this is my second blog). That's more than five years of archives! Then again, going back to my main point, it's gotten boring. Haha. Besides, I'm not deleting this, I'm just moving. :)

I haven't created a new one yet but I'll try doing so this weekend... That is if I finish studying CE 22 (Engineering Economy, got an exam on Tuesday). It's been getting quite busy because I need to finish my thesis in two months so I've been doing my best (as always).

Pretty and Flowery Things

2011-01-02T13:15:00.009+08:00

Because I got inspired by Miss Boredandcrafty's calendar (she's the person who sewed my Nodame bag and I've been following her blog ever since), I made this while I was on break from kitchen chores last New Year's Eve.

I got the sakura background from deviantArt and did the rest with Microsoft Publisher (since I always forget to borrow my classmate's Photoshop installer since I formatted my computer). Oh you can click on the pictures to enlarge them.

Airis and Wigi liked it so I'll be printing them a set. But first, I need to buy new ink!

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And here's a dress I bought last summer but I didn't get to wear until New Year's Eve Mass. Well, I've always tried wearing it to school but I always end up changing before leaving the house because it's too dressy for school (well, in my home college, it's normal for people to wear pambahay clothes).

I love how the dress's waist sits exactly on my rather high waist.

Pretty embroidery is pretty. Too bad the dress's style covers it.

What's Happened and What's Gonna Happen

2010-12-30T22:09:00.008+08:00

Since I'm pretty sure I'll be busy in the kitchen tomorrow, I'll be writing this now!

What has happened in 2010:

1. I've started exercising and improved my stamina.
2. I went to my first UP fair

3. Joined an ES Quiz contest in UPLB and won third place with Melvin, Kevin and Jules (and we only reviewed for a week haha)

4. Got certified as a diver (I need to find my license, I don't know where I placed it, that card is expensive demmet)

5. First heartbreak woohoo~ (and actually got spoiled by my family because of that haha)
6. First time not to enroll on a summer term!

7. First time to go to beach camping with friends! I truly love these people.

8. Got driving lessons

9. Voted in the national elections for the first time

10. Got my wisdom tooth extracted (ugh the pain)
11. I learned a piano piece (after years of not playing)
12. Joined Engg Cup for the first (and last) time!
13. I had the most stressful semester of my undergrad life (fifth year first sem, all my classmates will agree to this) that I even got insomnia.

14. I started (buying and) wearing dresses. Yup, I'm being a girl now. Well, trying.

15. Opened Pandora's box again even though it hasn't been a year since it got broken (Don't judge me, okay? I didn't plan this, I was planning the opposite. And there are reasons too. I just hope I did/am doing the right thing.) ^_^
16. I finally learned how to crochet!! I can remember trying very hard to learn back in high school but I couldn't get past the chain stitch. Well, something dawned on me and suddenly I can do single and double stitch now and I've made scarves too. Thanks to online tutorials haha.

17. It's my first time to go to the stage as I've always been a backstage person. This one really took me out of my comfort zones.

18. I put a loooong scratch and a little dent on my Dad's car the day after Christmas. :( And ffff, a lot of my neighbors witnessed my stupidity. And the said stupidity cost Php5,000.

What's gonna happen in 2011:

1. I will stop failing as a driver. I should not be traumatized. And besides, the Php5,000 repair bill won't be worth it if I don't learn.
2. I will get my hair red highlights.
3. I will do my best in acads and graduate on April.
4. I will do my best in the board exams and be an engineer by December.
5. I will enroll in AUTOCAD lessons.
6. I will be a good daughter and friend. And fine, sister, even if my brothers bully me most of the time.
7. I will make my blog entries more interesting by putting photos! Haha. Afterall, I write here to store my memories and photos are worth a thousand words, right?

Well, it has been a very stressful (not just acadwise but lovewise as well) but awesome year. Here's to making another good and eventful one! After all, I'll be graduating and taking the board exams this coming year. @___@ Let's do this!

Sakura

2010-12-29T13:21:00.006+08:00

I want this on my back.

photo from Google, not mine

My niece's husband is a good tattoo artist. I also have a fairly high tolerance for pain. However, my parents will definitely kill me if I get this. But meh, I can get it when I'm independent already so my parents can't do anything anymore. But then if I get a tattoo, I won't be able to donate blood, right? If that's the case, then I guess I won't have it. I'll just make do with other things with sakura in them.

Mom gave me some pink wallpaper and come summer, I'll cut them into sakura petals and stick them up my bedroom walls made of wood. Some of my walls are made of masonry though and the paint has gone into bad shape (and said wallpaper won't stick on masonry) so I hope I can buy some pink and brown paint and do something like this

photo from Tumblr, not mine

Holiday Report

2010-12-28T13:49:00.005+08:00

Busy Christmas was busy! It's either I'm out of the house or I'm in the kitchen. I baked so much bars, cakes and cookies, I've actually ran out of baking powder! Aside from my usual date/walnut bars and Oreo chocolate cake, I also baked new things like butter tart squares, cupcakes and apple streusel cake. I also cooked pesto, meat sauce and tempura for noche buena. But cooking and baking aside, I also gained ~2kg over Christmas. :))

And sadly, I still don't have gifts for my mom and my younger brother. I already know what to give them, just that I wasn't able to buy them. I should go to the mall before the year ends (also to buy new Grendha flats!)

I also planned to catch up with Naruto, Skip Beat and Kimi ni Todoke this Christmas break but I don't think I can do that anymore. I still need to do my PI 100 homework, a reaction paper for Fili, a paper for L Arch 1 and my thesis. *sigh* :( I also need to bake some cookies and bars and cook for media noche. Ugh busy holidays.

Miss Independent

2010-12-20T22:29:00.003+08:00

There's this quote I saw in Tumblr long ago that hit me so hard: "We try hard to prove how independent we are. But really, sometimes we just want someone who's brave enough to take care of us every once in a while."

I like taking care of people and sometimes even spoiling them but I don't really get taken care of or spoiled as much (sometimes because I refuse to hahaha). Although I do have friends who look out for and take care of me. ^_^

I've always been trying to prove that I'm Miss Independent. I really don't like it when I'm being a hassle or a burden to others. Then again, no one can be really independent. One way or another, we need to and we should depend on others. I may try hard at being independent but I don't think I can be totally independent. There are a lot of times when I need others (and I mean A LOT).

Recently, I thought I should stop trying so hard to be independent. Maybe I should get spoiled once in a while. I mean, I do spoil others too so I guess it's okay to let myself get spoiled sometimes. After all, it feels nice being taken care of once in a while. This doesn't mean I'll start being needy and all. Only that I'll stop trying too hard at being independent. :D

Warning: Rocks Ahead

2010-12-14T18:53:00.001+08:00

Warning: rocks/rants/sadness ahead

I think I really need to let them all out.

I'm not exactly doing a lot of things. The fact that I can still plurk and blog means I still have time in my hands. But honestly, I feel really stressed.

For one, I feel like time is passing too quick. Acads. I only have a 12-unit load and yet, I feel stressed. Thesis needs to be finished in 2.5 months (so much pressure from professors). And aside from thesis, there's this PHIVOLCS - UPD ICE project, which, technically I am not a part of but I have to be a part of it since it is related to my thesis. I mean, aside from getting knowledge and stuff like that, I don't get anything else. I don't even think I can place it in my resume that I was part of the project since, technically, I'm not.

Stuff here at home. Well, we're getting along but I really really hate how they'd depend so much on me when it comes to house chores. You know, only daugher and all. Ugh sexism. Seriously, I think the reason we're getting along is because I'm just being obedient. My older brother does nothing but sleep, eat and play Ragnarok and yet I still have to do house chores after a tiring day from school. I still have to do house chores even if I'm supposed to be studying. And they want me to fckn graduate with honors? How am I even going to graduate with honors if they'd rather have me doing house chores than study? Also, I'm trying to get over the fact that my mom had to cut my allowance because my older brother is quite a financial burden. He graduated 2 years ago (with honors, even) and yet he can't even help with financial stuff here at home (worse, he's a burden). I thought that when my brother graduates, I'd get a little spoiled but I didn't. Well, honestly, what my mom gives me right now is enough. It's just that if my brother is actually not a financial burden, I could get a little spoiled and probably get a more ergonomic phone (coz my phone is so hard to use).

Well, Friday nights are my vitamins. They serve as destressors. But the recent Friday nights have caused me stress. It's not going to last long. It's going to go away soon. Very very soon. They say I just have to enjoy while it lasts (and I actually am) but I'm afraid that I'm getting used to it. And once it goes away, I don't think I can bear with it. Once it goes away, the feeling will be similar to a heartbreak that I don't want to bear again. :(

Really, I'm trying to be cheerful but I don't think I keep my composure anymore. Recently, I've been losing my temper too quick. Recently, I've been sleeping more than usual. During these times, I just want to scream and disappear. During these times, I wish I'd just wake up with selective amnesia or something. IDK.

*sigh* Writing them down made me feel a bit better but I'm still stressed and sad.

Time Passes Too Quick

2010-12-12T22:40:00.003+08:00

I wish I had more time to:

find gifts for my family
bake cookies and bars for people (and do the grocery shopping too)
participate in engg week mini-events
help Yani with Maski costumes
do my thesis and study HAZUS
go to Laguna to visit my cousin's family who's on vacation from Saudi
learn more about crocheting
read the novel I bought this week
make my girl!Kakashi costume :(
help mom with the cooking

In other words, I have so much to do. And I feel a little down because I feel like time is passing by too quick and I haven't done much. And if time passes by too quick, I might not be able to feel Christmas. *sigh* Stress and pressure. :(

My Christmas Wishlist

2010-12-06T18:47:00.006+08:00

Twelve things:

Grendha ballet flats (in black or neutral)
wedge sandals or booties (like this one)
makeup brushes (a kabuki brush and a brush set like this or this or this or this)
makeup workshop
springform pan
paper boxes
black or white cardigan
cute music box
a lot of angel wing charms, both silver and gold-colored (like this)
Geisha of Gion by Mineko Iwasaki
Ocean Park or EK trip
lakwatsa with friends, time with family

But honestly, among all those listed, the ones I want the most are just 1, 9, 11 and 12. I'm mababaw that way. Haha.

Busy December

2010-12-04T17:53:00.006+08:00

It's already December but I don't feel like Christmas is near (even if I already have my Christmas list and all). It feels like Christmas is just going to pass me by. :( It's because I'm sure I'll just do thesis stuff on Christmas break and my parents will ask me to bake so much cookies and cake and wrap their presents for their friends. Baking and wrapping others' presents are okay but I also have to do thesis so the Christmas break will surely be not enough. *sigh* So much for the last Christmas vacation of my life. But I do hope it'll be a happy Christmas :D

Plus, there's Engg Week so I'm really going to be busy. Next week, Saturday, I'll have to do the make-up for Aggre's Awitan people. I love putting makeup on people though so it's alright (I'm kind of excited, actually). And then the week after that, I'll be doing Miss Aggre's makeup for the Miss Engg pageant. I'm so excited for Ludz. I know he'll do a good job so I must also do a good job in putting makeup on him.

Busy weeks ahead... I need to watch two plays for PI 100 this week. Thesis progress report on Wednesday and a short report for CE 22 on Thursday.

One Can Never Tell

2010-11-30T18:35:00.006+08:00

Well, another lesson learned: one can never tell. Things don't always go as planned. Just like construction plans, you can't always follow them perfectly. Sometimes you have to make changes or adjustments to account for a few circumstances that suddenly come up.

I'm planning to go on another roller coaster ride. I don't know where it's going to bring me but I'd rather take the risk than regret forever. I hate regrets and I don't have time to think about them.

"It's not impossible. It's just difficult." -Aoi, Kaichou wa Maid-sama

***

December starts tomorrow. Excited?

Hands of Time

2010-11-24T18:24:00.006+08:00

I've been so bothered and busy recently.

Engg Week is about to start and there's just so much things to do. I've also been bothered by a few things. I've lost my drive in my thesis. I've lost some energy. I haven't been smiling as much as before. I really need to get up from this semi-slump very soon.

I really wish I had more time in my hands so I can do all the things I need to do. I wish I could find a simpler methodology for my thesis (something that an undergrad can actually do). I wish commuting home would be easier too. Commuting has been such a pain recently because of the number coding shit for buses.

I hope I can get these distractions out of my head very soon. They're bothering me.

Sem Starter

2010-11-14T23:22:00.003+08:00

Friday was a blast.

I had no class because the instructor didn't show up so I just waited for Yanyan the whole day at the tambayan. And since I got my make-up kit with me, I got to put make-up on Gaila, Mika and Jkay! So happy~

Yanyan arrived late in the afternoon and we were supposed to go to Dipso but it was closed so we ended up at Alfahkr's (sp?). I wanted froyo so we went to I Heart Froyo and shared stories. Wigi was craving alcohol so he got us to go to Tomato Kick and shared more stories (and I thought I was going home early that night). I got peer pressured into drinking more alcohol than what I'm used to so I ended up getting sleepy. And then when I went to the toilet, Yanyan accompanied me and we entered this bookshop beside TK. I saw that they had manga so I browsed and found RG Veda volume 2 for 120 pesos. LUCKY! No hesitations, I bought it coz I love the art. Well, I got home at 2am. Very early, I know. Haha. It was the first time I went home that late (or rather, early).

The next day, some parts of my tummy and my back were itching (yeah, allergies) but I'm lucky because it wasn't as bad as before and the itching was gone by early afternoon! I guess my friends are right... I should drink more alcohol to get rid of the allergic reactions. Also, my parents didn't ask what time I got home. Haha.

Well, I don't think I'll be drinking a lot of alcohol next time if I'm outside my or a friend's house. Ugh. I get sleepy.

I really should get out of the vacation mode. I haven't done anything thesis-related in weeks. :( I need progress or I'll be dead.

Me on Make-Up

2010-11-13T14:14:00.004+08:00

I consider make-up as two things: a means to enhance a person's beauty and a form of art.

I started using a little make-up more than a year ago, when I turned 20 mainly because the dark circles under my eyes started to get noticeable and I felt the need to use concealer. Before that, I only put baby powder on my face (and I don't even do that everyday). My acne only started to tame when I was around 19 years old. And I thought that putting stuff on my face while I had acne would just aggravate it.

I only learned how to put make-up through the internet and I have so much way to go.

Well, my routine is pretty simple and quick. I put BB cream (only as concealer and not on the whole face), pressed powder, some brown blush just to put color on my cheeks and petroleum jelly for the lips (because I started to become allergic to lip products when I was in third year college).

Things I use for normal days

My make-up kit for occasions (that hot pink patent make-up kit from my aunt is so much love)

My make-up kit for when I put make-up on other people (a.k.a. everything I got).

I don't have a lot but I think this is just right because I don't really use them often so I'd just waste things if I buy too much. But honestly, I wish I had more opportunity to use them, haha.

Right now, I'm finding budget for a baked bronzer from Elianto, a new compact because my Pigeon is almost finished (well, I've had it for a year already haha) and some new brushes (an eyeshadow brush, a fan brush and a retractable kabuki brush). I also think I should get an eyelash curler soon (although not for everyday use).

Prelude

2010-11-08T13:53:00.004+08:00

Truth is, this

Me during AME Track 10. We were already cleaning up and it was past 10pm hence the garbage bag and the wasted look (sorry, I don't have much photos during the event). Photo by Zaru.

is actually a prelude to this

Girl version Kakashi. Something I found in dA. By Noriyuki83.

I already have a silver wig. I'm planning to wear the costume during Lantern Parade. I hope I finish by then. *crosses fingers*

Finale

2010-11-07T20:07:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was a blast. It was very tiring (my back and feet hurt) and there were problems but AME Track 10 is still awesome. Congratulations, UP AME! *insert hearts and confetti here*

I wasn't able to go looking around for stuff because I'd feel guilty if I looked around leisurely while everyone else was working very hard. I got a few pictures before and towards the end of the program and I have no pictures of cosplayers (except for Airis who was dressed as Kuchiha and Jin's group who did FMA).

I kind of miss that kind of crowd. I wonder when the next con will be, I'd really want to go, take pictures and look around this time.

Also, tomorrow will be last day of my sembreak... and it's my last sembreak because I'm graduating this sem. *crosses fingers* Honestly, I'm kind of excited for this sem if not for my thesis. My only major subject is CE 22. I also have L Arch 1 and PI 100. It's going to be the first time in around 2 years that I get classes outside the College of Engineering. I also have fin swimming for PE so I'm really excited. However, my thesis is such a pain so there are mixed feelings, really.

If I Could Meet Anyone

2010-11-01T23:05:00.003+08:00

Are you familiar with this question "If you could meet anyone who's already died, who would it be?"

If I could meet anyone who has already died, I'd like to meet my grandma (my dad's mom). She died when I was just a year old so I don't have memories of her. Actually, she's the only grandparent that I don't have memories of. And yet I admire her so much. Why? She's a seamstress. The sewing machine she owned when she was alive is in my room and I use it sometimes when I make headbands. She can crochet. I think she can knit too. She is a good baker. She is a good cook. She can make awesome preserves that can last two years in the shelf (not in the refrigerator, but in the shelf). Well, that's what my dad tells me a lot.

Honestly, if I could meet her, I'd probably ask her to teach me how to crochet and teach me more about sewing.

Going With the Flow

2010-10-27T00:56:00.003+08:00

If I'm going to be honest, I'd say I want to become a wedding or an event planner. It's probably stressful (especially if the event is near) but then I really like events and fancy things.

What am I doing in CE then?

I don't know. Just that one afternoon, while watching Prison Break, it dawned into me that I want to be like Michael Scofield (a structural engineer). After 11 months, I got admitted to the (then) Department of Civil Engineering.

But maybe I just got too stressed last semester that's why I became a little bothered if I really want my course or not. Maybe I still love engineering, I'm still doing good in it, anyway. Maybe I don't really want to become a wedding/event planner. Maybe I should pursue engineering and just plan someone's wedding (like a friend's or maybe my brother's) just to have a taste of being a wedding/event planner.

***

I'm craving sans rival or silvanas. Okay, that's just random.

And just when I'm about to publish this post, I got news that might make my plans for the future change. I've always believed in God and in signs (in fact, I always ask for signs from Him whenever I have problems in decision-making). And it's funny how He's sending me signs that will lead to one thing... and yet I'm not so sure I like that place where He's leading me. But ohwell, might as well just go with the flow. :3

Pressure

2010-10-20T14:51:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, I rode the bus to school and there was a lady who got down the bus. She was wearing shorts, had quite nice legs and fair skin. I also saw a man inside the bus who was actually making an effort just to look at the lady's legs. Humahaba yung leeg niya para lang makita yung legs ng babae. Ugh. I could only say "Ano ba yan" in my head. T______T

***

Sembreak started last Sunday but it's not exactly sembreak for me. I totally hate how I'm given a lot of pressure (No, not my parents. They never had the need to pressure me with regards to academics). Ugh. I even need to study something not very important (but something very difficult) this sembreak. I'm supposed to be learning a software, not reading something difficult but not important. I'm supposed to be having fun, not getting stressed. I've had enough stress last first semester, can I please just have some break? I'm not superhuman. I get tired too. If I get tired too much, I might just suddenly hide inside a shell and disappear for some time.

Before, I actually considered the academe as my career path. I swear I really did. But now, I''m kind of giving up on it. I guess I'd better go to the corporate career path. Academe is too stressful considering that it's not financially rewarding. Well, the corporate career path will also be stressful but it might be more rewarding. And at least, if you choose the corporate path, you don't have to bring your job home. Really, my ultimate goal is to be a happy person who travels a lot.

Seriously, I just think it's unfair that I've been working very hard and yet I still get so much pressure. Meh, I guess magiging pasaway muna ako this time. Hoho~

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Hah, I can't wait for induction on Saturday. :)

Freedom

2010-10-16T20:25:00.003+08:00

I miss isaw nights with AME people. Buy isaw from Mang Larry's, buy soda from SC, tambay sa tapat ng Kalai, kain, kwentuhan. I don't know if my tummy can still handle the isaw (might get tummy aches or something, I'm not sure) but I really miss those times. Haha. We should do that again before graduation haha.

***

I'm on sembreak now! Although I still need to work on my thesis and AME fair this sembreak but it's okay.

Honestly, I'm not used to not doing anything. The past four weeks were hell weeks and I haven't been sleeping properly the past week so you could say I've gotten too used to it. My parents are even complaining that I study too hard hahaha. (So weird for parents to do that, really haha.) Then again, what can they do? I'll regret it forever if I don't aim for excellence haha.

Tomorrow, I'll start cleaning my room and storing away those lecture notes. :D Goodbye, first semester, my most stressful semester in college! Don't come back, ok?

***

I want to go to Manila Ocean Park.To EK, for the kicks. To Little Tokyo. To Cubao X.

I also want to take a look at Forever21, Etude House and Payless ShoeSource in Megamall.

Ah, I need to go to Divisoria too to buy stuff for my cosplay of sorts and for my handicrafts. Hehe. XD

Crazy Friday

2010-10-09T15:21:00.006+08:00

Parents are away. A whole wave of exams and deadlines just ended. I didn't want to go home early. Airis and Lolo Klaine wanted to watch RE 4 but I already watched it weeks ago. But still I didn't want to go home early so I just re-watched the thing. It's awesome anyway haha. Also, who cares about money, I need to de-stress. Ali Larter's wallflip is still too awesome. And Wentworth Miller is still so much love. Kyaaa~ And then we ended up in Airis's house. LOL.

One more wave of hell and then sembreak. Although I still have project meetings (related to thesis) on sembreak so my sembreak is almost non-existent. :( I'll still have to go to school on sembreak. Huhu.

Really, this semester is just hell. I can't wait to finish it. Next semester, I'll be taking PI100 and an MST (probably MS 1). It's gonna be the first time in 2 years that I'll be taking classes outside Engineering. I'm excited. And I'll be taking fin swimming for PE. I hope my CRS Graduating powers will work. And then just CE 22 (Engineering Economy) and thesis.

Ito, itong sem talagang ito ang kung saan ko naranasan ang maximum stress. Sa totoo lang, lumampas na sa yield stress, malapit na sa ultimate stress.

I'll seriously go shopping after this hell. :D

Turning Point

2010-10-06T23:52:00.004+08:00

I didn't just turn 21. I've actually turned female.

I've been drawn to dresses, ballet flats and wedges lately. I've actually turned female, I can't believe it. It's weird because before, I always wore jeans and sneakers. I was such a boy (especially until second year college haha). I got so much sneakers and I honestly do not know what I'm going to do with them once I graduate and get a job. But I guess I'll enjoy my last undergrad year by wearing all those things that I won't be able to wear once I get a job (e.g. shorts and sneakers). I hope I'll be able to get my hair some crazy highlights as well (I need to find first a not-too-expensive salon).

I got new almost-opaque-stockings Tuesday last week (while I was waiting for Charm because I went to FIP's fashion show in SM The Block where Charm showcased her project). I was actually looking for cotton tights that reach the toes but I couldn't find one in SM Department store so I ended up with stockings again.

Got this Clinique blush from my aunt. They're on vacation from the States. See, I'm female!

Aerosoles wedges. Love. Hehe. I had my aunt order them for me from the States coz they were on sale. Mom paid for it though (as a birthday gift of sorts). Hoho~ Super comfortable! Aerosoles are love.

I was with AME friends last Friday and we went to Trinoma's atrium after eating dinner to see Saizen's sale. We also went to the place where a few Dorothy Perkins and Topshop stuff were and I saw this pale yellow (almost beige) dress. Instant love. A bit loose but still alright. I also saw a pink one but Lolo Klaine, Airis and Numi told me that the yellow-ish color suits me more. I really love shopping with girl friends. The best thing: I got it for Php500. Hoho~ WIN!

I was also on the verge of buying knee-high boots last Friday. Lol. They were on sale and they were cheap. Numi has the same pair. She was actually encouraging me to buy them. But the pair had 2-inch heels so I didn't haha. Had the pair been flat boots, I would have probably bought them on the spot (like what Numi did). Haha.

And I need to buy new jeans. I have a lot of jeans but they're all loose except for one pair. I also need shirts. Haven't got a lot to wear recently. And a new compact powder coz the one I'm using is hitting pan. Stress is killing me, turning me into a zombie. After finals and thesis end-term presentation, I'll definitely go shopping.

Cute, Crack, Action

2010-09-25T12:44:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, at around 6:30pm, I went to Gateway to watch Legend of the Guardians with Airis, Yanyan and Lolo Klaine. I rode the Katipunan jeep and then when I walking from the jeepney terminal to the LRT station, some scary guy just called "ate" so I walked faster to get rid of him. Well, there were a lot of other people in the sidewalk too. Later on, I felt someone tugging my backpack's pocket so I put my bag in front of me and saw that it was another scary guy tugging on my bag. Damn it. I was really scared. Imagine the relief when I got when I finally got to the LRT station. I don't know if I looked vulnerable just because of what I was wearing. I was just wearing a t-shirt, shorts, stockings, ballet flats and my usual backpack. I was even carrying a book and wearing my eyeglasses and I think I look like a nerd. If it hadn't been for the stockings, I'd look like I'm wearing pambahay. I dunno if those scary guys tried to pick on me because I looked vulnerable or what.

Damn it, I'm never walking that place alone again.

On another note, Legend of the Guardians was really awesome. Although initially, I didn't think I'd be entertained by a movie about owls. It's full of cuteness, crack and action. We didn't watch it in 3D but I enjoyed a lot! I was smiling the whole time. Heehee. Eglantine was super cuuuuute!

Acads? What acads? Heh heh. 157 exam due on Friday hahahaha.

Distraction Sent

2010-09-22T21:52:00.000+08:00

Distractions have been sent my way.

No one's really pressuring me. It's just I who puts pressure on myself. Why? Because if I don't do my best and push my ultimate limit, I'll regret it. That's excellence for me. I've been this way for a few years already. But honestly, right now, I'm not sure if I should entertain the distraction and stop pushing my limits too much or if the said distraction is just a test for me and I should resist it.

It's probably the former. At least, I'm trying to think so.

I'm trying to make myself accept that I don't really need to push myself too far and put too much pressure on myself. I'm trying to make myself accept that I need some breather, some distraction. I should stop stressing myself too much. I know I can do all these things but I don't really have to do all of them to the point that I'm getting so tired already. Life is short, I should enjoy it. I'm a student but my life shouldn't really revovle on studying alone (well, not that it completely does).

But that doesn't mean that I should stop doing my best or stop pursuing excellence. I'm just telling myself that "Hey, lessen that nerdiness, enjoy life, stop stressing too much or you'll get old fast!"

Or I dunno, maybe I'm just trying to justify this distraction. Ohwell, who cares as long as I'm happy and I'm not failing my subjects haha. I just hope this little distraction continues. :3

Conflict, Acceptance, Wishlist

2010-09-19T13:15:00.010+08:00

It's toxic and tiring. I'm near breaking point. But I don't want to give up. If I give up, I'll have regrets and I hate having regrets.

Sometimes, we just need a break. Or a couple of breaks. I went home a little late last Friday from watching RE4. Yesterday, I was supposed to go home early but I ended up going home late as well. Normally, I wouldn't go out if I know that I have a lot of things to do. But it's different this time, I really need breaks and my friends to keep my sanity.

Here be my birthday wishlist:

A music box. I've always wanted one.

Cute earphones like these strawberry ones.

Springform pan and muffin pan

Black leather wedges

Canvas wedges

Eiffel Tower keychain (Carlo promised me this before his trip to Europe, I hope he didn't forget)

Leaning Tower of Pisa keychain (Carlo also promised me this one)

Anbu!Kakashi plushie. I'm not into stuffed toys but Anbu!Kakashi is too cute to resist :3

Elianto's baked marble blusher in bronze

Well, honestly, anything cute and pretty would make me go "kyaaaa *hearts*" already. A Gundam plastic model would be nice too! Haha.

Alright, so much for wishes, I'll be doing my project now.

Slump

2010-09-11T10:41:00.003+08:00

This happens once or twice in a semester. I don't have appetite at all (I only eat when my tummy starts making noise and tells me to go put some food inside it) and I don't feel like studying. I honestly don't know what to do right now. I just want to sleep until the semester ends.

I don't want to force it this time. I want to do things slowly and not stress myself over things. I've had enough stress, I think. Four weeks of classes left and there are tons of things left to do. Dear profs, why do you guys have to be so harsh and give us all these projects as if we didn't have any other subjects and thesis? :( I wish my brain had a temporary delete function so I can focus on only one thing.

Perhaps it's my fault too for trying to do everything when in truth, I can't, so this is what I get.

Hmph, whoever said 12 units of majors, 6 units of [majors pretending to be] electives and 1 unit of thesis proposal was easy.

Maybe I'll go play the keyboard when Dad is done playing Christmas songs for the day.

To Infinity and Beyond

2010-09-04T11:00:00.003+08:00

Last weekend, I ALMOST felt like crying because I couldn't understand things about my research. But yesterday, Kuya Romeo (currently a CE instructor, graduated Magna cum laude just this April, also studied in Manila Science!) told me that he also has a hard time understanding the stuff I'm reading. I kind of felt relieved and a bit more motivated, thanks to my idol, Kuya Romeo!

Ah, I can't wait for sembreak. Really.

Sembreak plans

scuba diving in Batangas
go to Divisoria to buy fabric, lace, ribbons and probably some beads
sew stuff (like a skirt or a short yukata)
room general cleaning
keyboard practice
etc. etc.

Also, I think I know what I'm going to do with my life. :) Thanks Papa God. Now I'm off to reaching my dreams. To infinity and beyond!

Options

2010-08-28T22:28:00.006+08:00

Kaninang lunch, napag-usapan namin ni Tantan ang mga balak namin sa buhay. Kaninang hapon din, natanong ako ni Kuya David kung anong balak ko sa buhay. Sa totoo lang, nahihirapan ako sa tanong na yun. I have a lot of options. SO MUCH options, actually. It's confusing but I guess I'll just pray so that I'll be led to the right decision. :)

And yes, I'm actually bothered because I cram my decisions, even important ones. I don't like having to think about things when they're not yet there so once it's already there, I'm forced to decide quickly. :)) See, I cram even decisions, not just studying.

And other things:

I haven't been eating breakfast lately (again). I know it's bad but... I just don't have appetite, especially in the morning. :(
I want to join Indakan (or at least just the practices). I'm serious. I don't know how to dance. I'm serious. My only dancing experience would be DanceManiax and DDR. I'm serious. :) But I really want to learn how to dance heehee.
WANTED: motivation/inspiration.
I haven't been swimming/jogging. :(
So much requirement left. Only six weeks of classes left. I can't believe this sem is going to end soon. The end is drawing closer. *cringes*
I'm keeping myself from going inside the mall (even though I pass by Trinoma and SM North everyday). This way, I save my money. I hope this saving continues. But then, [window] shopping is a stress-reliever for me so I wonder if I can keep this up. :(

Work and Play

2010-08-20T17:33:00.003+08:00

I like working hard because I believe that I can only play once I'm done working. If I work hard, I can justify my playing hard. Also, if I play before I work, I'll just be bothered by the work that I need to do so I won't be able to enjoy playing. I also like working hard because whenever I do, I always feel that the hard work will eventually pay off one way or another.

It's a Friday night. Before, my typical Friday night would be going to the mall with the usual friends. But I gotta study right now. I got so much things to do this weekend, like exams, reports, homework and research. It may seem like I'm such a dull girl: all work and no play. But no, really. I know how to have fun - but only after I finish what needs to be done.

After this semester, the efforts will pay off and I can reward myself with a dive to Batangas. :)

All Things Cute and Cheap

2010-08-14T11:59:00.008+08:00

They are the reason why I'm broke. Even if it's cheap, if you buy a lot of cheap things, you'll still end up broke (like me) haha. I do have self-control! I don't buy things if I don't need them but the said self-control is not enough! I need to increase self-control! Haha. Look at some of the things I bought this semester:

I bought this for my kuya, ok? It's a mouse pad with a cushion for the wrist. Coz he was asking me where he can buy one. Yes, he's using it now lol.

Notebook (supposedly for research notes but I can't bring myself to writing on such a pretty notebook so I'll just give this to my friend as a gift)

Pen with a Kokeshi doll-like cap. Hey, a pen is a necessity!

Cookie cutters. Damn you, Saizen ;;____;; I love sakuras too much.

Don't judge me for buying makeup, I just used them for my creative pic. D: The glitter powder was very pink and shiny!

Deco tape

Cute erasers. The only "non-needed" cute thing I bought. I only have the dango left with me because I gave the rest to Charm, Ate Yvette and Ate Raine.

My super cute two-layer bento box (always mistaken for a pencil case)! I love sakuras.

Alright, enough cuteness. =\

Reminders

2010-08-09T21:33:00.004+08:00

I miss playing the keyboard. I should learn a new piece.
I haven't practiced driving in a month (maybe even more) graaaaah pagagalitan ako ng magulang koooo. D:
I miss crafting things. :( I haven't made jewelry for the long time.
I should have bought a storage box long ago to clear up my shelf and put the not-so-important stuff up my cabinet.
I have an excuse to buy a new [cute] notebook: thesis/research notes heehee~
I want an Eiffel Tower pendant. And angel wings earrings. (I rarely wear jewelry, really)
I should dive this sem. Or at least on sembreak before I forget the skills. =\ That means I should save a lot of money.
I've wanted to try taking care of hydrangeas for a long time (it's been years, I think) but I haven't bought one until now. Manila Seedling Bank has lots and it's just across my dad's workplace.
I need more RAM. And an external hard disk. I've just formatted my computer and my hard drive is about to be full again. =\

I made this entry to remind me of things I should to do. I've been too absorbed by acads, especially research.

Life and Goals

2010-08-07T08:33:00.004+08:00

I just had my grad pictorial last Wednesday. I must graduate on April, yes.

It's so busy I have no more time for social life. :( I got so much movies in my hard drive but I can't even watch them. I also haven't even seen The Last Airbender, Inception, Toy Story 3 and a lot more. I'm such an outdated loser. Hahaha.

It's already mid-semester and there is still so much requirements, so much software to study, so much reports, so much designs and so much research to do. I'll really have to cut down on the internet, social life and org things if I want to do accomplish all these acad things.

Right now, I'm arguing with myself regarding my goals. I need to set my goals now to be able to know where to allot my time. I didn't know that goal-setting would be difficult sometimes. :(

Also, I think I like research. It broadens my knowledge. It makes me go past my comfort zones. I just hope the liking won't stop. :)

Home on a Saturday Morning

2010-07-31T10:32:00.004+08:00

I am actually home and doing my laundry on a Saturday morning. I can't believe it. July was so busy that I'm always out of the house. Actually, I'll still be going out tonight and will be back tomorrow morning haha. At least I'm enjoying my weekend. :)

Last Monday was the Engg Cup swimming event. There was a relay and an individual event. We lacked players so I had to join the individual event aside from the relay. Of course I finished last because I'm a slow swimmer while the other departments' players were awesome swimmers. And they were all boys. Haha. But it was still fun because it's my first time to join Engg Cup! And the other ICE players were also joining for fun so no pressure. :)

Last Wednesday, I had this rash that spread in my left arm and right leg and I don't approve of self-medication so I went to the infirmary. Funnily, I met Ace (high school classmate I haven't seen since graduation) with his girlfriend, Tessa (a high school batchmate, also from UP Engg) while I was walking to the infirmary. Haha. He didn't even recognize me right away. I guess I have to thank the rashes for letting me see a high school classmate I haven't seen in years. :)

Recently, I'm getting quite amused with the our requirements. In 112, we had to design a distribution system for a small village (although I wasn't able to do it completely). In 124, we are planning for a gasoline station construction project. In 157, our exam will be [structurally] designing a house. It feels like I'll be an engineer soon. Plus, there's also research, which I'm enjoying as of the moment. The requirements are overwhelming so I hope I'll get by. :3

CE 190 midterm presentation on Friday! I need to make a slide show and a short write-up. :)

This Time For Sure

2010-07-25T21:25:00.005+08:00

I thought I could focus on academics and AME after CE Talk. I was wrong. LOL. I got in charge of Aggre's Silver Anniversary Party (yesterday) decorations and I got to start with it last Wednesday. To think I had exams, assignments and thesis to do. :( But this time, for sure. :)

Oh well, the decors were pulled off properly with the help of a lot of people (thanks guys!) The acads? Well, I'm not sure. :(

Also, I wasn't able to attend AME Batch 10 acquaintance party because we needed to setup the venue for the Silver Anniversary and I still feel very sad about it. I miss AME people a lot. I haven't been to the tambayan for more than 2 weeks already. I'll be going on Tuesday, rain or shine.

Anyway, I bought and wore 3.5-inch high heels for the first time ever. It hurts after a while, naturally, but at least I didn't trip haha. I really want to learn how to be comfortable wearing high heels. :)

Thesis. I badly need to make progress before Wednesday.

Also, Engg Cup swimming tomorrow noon. It's my first time ever to join Engg Cup. I think it'd be nice to join at least once during my undergrad life even though I'm not athletic. Haha. Good luck to me tomorrow! \o/

I need to make my creative shot costume immediately. My grad pictorial is on August 4. Crap.

Shifting Focus

2010-07-18T20:08:00.003+08:00

Ah, finally CE Talk is finished. Our food suppliers were big as*holes but aside from that, everything was great. Now I can focus more on acads (long exams, assignments, thesis) and AME. Graah. I can't believe how much things I'm doing.

Although we still have the Alumni Homecoming next week. I still need a dress, a mask and shoes (basically, I don't have anything to wear yet). Our committee is also in charge of decorating the venue. I'll probably just help with setting up and then leave early because my parents have also noticed that I go out a lot and I go home late a lot recently (they might scold me soon if I don't control my activities). Aggre's Alumni Homecoming also coincides with AME's acquaintance party. I hope I can attend the acquaintance party as well.

Huhu, it's so busy. I no longer have time to go to the mall (even though I pass by it everyday). I no longer have time to practice driving. I no longer have time to watch all the movies I copied from Melvin's EHD. I no longer have time to clean my room (I think my dad did it for me yesterday).

Goodbye

2010-07-10T16:06:00.004+08:00

I now have two layers of eyebags. Good thing BB cream exists. Honestly, I'm not lacking sleep yet but I can feel the storm coming.

Exams are starting. Progress report on Friday so I need to make progress (well, I do have some progress, I think. I just want more). CE Talk on Saturday and I still have a lot of things to do for that. Yearbook writeup deadline on Saturday. AME Fairmeets are starting too. *sigh*

So I guess, goodbye social life but not totally (because no social life = no life and I want to have a life too). See you when I see you. :( I just want (yes, "want", not just "need") to focus on my acads more.

Learning the Hard Way Again

2010-07-03T16:25:00.004+08:00

I always thought misunderstandings can be cleared by proper communication. Now I know I'm wrong. Because if the other party is not rational enough or not intelligent enough to comprehend what you are saying, then you can't do anything about it. No matter how well-versed your statements are, if the other party can't understand or doesn't want to understand what you are saying, then nothing is going to happen, it will just remain a misunderstanding. I guess I'm learning the hard way again.

Well, it's starting to get busy now. So much homework and reports and stuff, a lot of org activities and now I also have to start on thesis (we were given topics just yesterday). No exams yet but when exams start... hindi ko na alam kung saan ako pupulutin. :(

But I want to do my best. :D

And I'm really tired right now. :(

Hard Way

2010-06-27T20:24:00.008+08:00

I haven't been going online a lot recently. Well, I have a lot of chores to do when I get home from school. But I think I still need to cut down my internet hours (especially during weekends) so I can focus more on academics (i.e. read lessons and not cram homework).

Last Thursday was the first time this semester that I slept really late. I slept at 2:45 (and had to wake up at 4:45 am) because of the 157 homework. I had a week to do it but I thought it was easy so I just crammed it. I was wrong. In the end, I woke up 45 minutes late, got to class 20 minutes late and what's more, we didn't have to pass our homework. D:

What a hard way to learn my lesson. Haha. Ohwell... I really should start reading and doing homework.

*sigh* So much to do...

I haven't been going out a lot because I'm saving up for stuff. I haven't seen Airis, Lolo Klaine, Kuya Mikko, buddy Numi and a lot more people in a long time. I also miss Aggre 05 people (well, they're reviewing for boards). ;;____;; I want to go to TimeZone too to play DanceManiax and try that DJ Technika thing. I wonder if I can go there soon.

Seriously, I need to be more productive. :(

Daddy Day

2010-06-20T11:51:00.005+08:00

My brothers and I didn't go to nursery school. Our dad taught us how to read, write, count, etc. (I have no idea how he did that because he has an 8-5 work too.) My dad cooks good food (I especially like his T-bone steak and sinampalukang manok). But he also likes it when I cook chicken fillet, beef caldereta and chicken curry. When my mom isn't around during Saturdays, he goes to the market. My dad also cleans the house a lot (because he is very particular with cleanliness). My dad does our laundry. He's good at removing stains. My dad can fix minor electrical and plumbing fixtures. He can also do a little carpentry.

My dad has a quick temper like me but when we fight or argue, we'd make up in less than a day. (LOL we're crazy, yes.) But even if he has a quick temper, he's very very patient with my mom. My dad loves shopping. His closet has a lot of branded and expensive shits I don't even wear (Levi's, Girbaud, etc) but he's practical because he only buys clothes when they're on sale. LOL.

Yes, my dad is made of awesome.

Few Things

2010-06-19T19:41:00.003+08:00

A few things right now:

I'm in a phase where I'm super in love with sakuras and Hello Kitty and anything cute. I have super old Hello Kitty stickers and I'm practically sticking them everywhere when I get the chance LOL. I think this phase eventually will pass by though. LOL
My clothes are arranged by color and I just noticed that white has become the most dominant color.
I'm trying to learn how to contour the cheeks. I don't know if my blusher shades are wrong or if I'm using the wrong brush or my skin tone is just not appropriate for contouring or I just fail at it. It's probably the last hahaha.
While getting my watch's battery replaced at Timex, I noticed one of their posters - a watch with sakuras on its face. I asked the saleslady how much it was (I had an idea it would be very expensive but I just had to ask coz I was in love with it haha) and she said it's not yet released.
I got a nice cotton blouse from Space (white again LOL) and it's inexpensive because it's on sale! Hoho~ it's also the last piece (AFAIK). Score! Seriously, their clothes are very stylish although most of them are not to my taste and style.
I've been tasked to decorate the stage for our org's event... I'll have to try my best so it won't look very gay/girly (because anything I decorate always ends up girly). I'm planning on making it elegant but inexpensive. :)

Headaches

2010-06-11T18:43:00.003+08:00

I've been getting headaches everyday since classes started. I hate this and I don't really want to depend on paracetamol.

Well, first week of classes is pretty typical. Same classmates, same classrooms, same profs (just a few new ones). 19 units of CE subjects. 1 unit is thesis proposal and 6 units are CE electives. I know I'll be able to pull it off. :) I got a few resolutions for this new school year:

lessen internet use and devote more time to studying (which I think I can do because I'm becoming bored of the internet)
do advance reading especially in CE 112
exercise (hopefully to lose weight and gain stamina)

Also, I've been going to the mall a lot this week. I haven't bought any clothes but I bought quite some school supplies. I resist to buying a lot of stuff although I still end up spending. I also found a store that sells very pretty but inexpensive ballet flats. I think I'll buy a pair next week because I've been wanting a pair since last semester. So much for resistance. Anyway, I need to stop going to the mall so I can save my allowance.

I also need to go home early because I have chores to do at home (e.g. cooking dinner) because my mom always goes home late from her new workplace so my dad and I are left with the house chores. I'm actually worried that my dad would get sick or over-fatigued soon because he's also working and doing a lot of things at home.

June

2010-06-07T14:11:00.005+08:00

Look, it's June! I can't imagine I've been such a semi-bum for two months. (Semi because I'm not exactly doing nothing.) My mom and I realized yesterday that I should have just taken AutoCAD lessons this summer. Gaaah, why do I have such a poor memory? :( Oh well, I'll just take lessons after graduation and before reviewing for boards.

Honestly, it's kind of getting scary - the fact that I'll be graduating in less than a year and I have to face "real life" soon. I can be pretty spontaneous at times and I don't have concrete plans for myself after school but I'm not totally, totally spontaneous. There are times too when I wonder what lies ahead. Aside from board exams, no one knows what is going to happen next. But oh well, might as well enjoy the present.

I'm thinking of crazy (but legal) things to do during my fifth year. Hoho. Classes start tomorrow. Lunch times and kuwentuhan with batchmates, Fridays with AME friends, Aggre and AME tambayan, sleepless nights, hell weeks coming up!

Finale

2010-05-30T20:43:00.004+08:00

I just got back from the Puerto Galera family trip today. It was really fun! Aside from swimming, we also went kayaking, snorkeling (which eventually became skin diving for me because I removed my life vest and had fins on) and beach hopping (I finally saw a sandbar for the first time LOL).

We asked how much jetskiing was but it was 3500 pesos for an hour and it's too expensive. Maybe next time. Also, my mom seemed like she wanted to try the banana boat thing but when she asked me if I wanted to try it, I said that for me, paying 200 pesos (per person) just to get thrown into the water wasn't worth it. She also asked me if I wanted to go parasailing with my brother (well, the price was pretty okay). But I saw people parasailing that afternoon and I estimate that they go up to 50 feet and I'm not exactly fond of heights. Hahaha.

I also walked a lot, especially at night. Last night, I even got to watch fire poi dancers. They were awesome!

And with this trip, I end the last summer of my undergrad life. :)) Fifth year coming up!

50 Ways to Cope With Stress

2010-05-25T21:40:00.003+08:00

Stress is such a monster. It makes you sick, gives you hyperacidity, makes your skin rough, gives you breakouts and so much more. Pfft. Screw stress. I got this 50 Ways to Cope with Stress from Fra's Tumlbr. I bold-ed the items that I've been doing and I italicized the items that I've been trying to do. :) Try it too!

Get up 15 minutes earlier.
Prepare for the morning the night before.
Don’t rely on your memory. Write things down.
Repair things that don’t work properly.
Make duplicate keys.
Say “NO” more often.
Set priorities in your life.
Avoid negative people.
Always make copies of important papers.
Ask for help with jobs you dislike.
Break large tasks into sized portions.
Look at problems as challenges.
Smile more.
Be prepared for the rain.
Schedule a play time into every day.
Avoid tight fitting clothes.
Take a bubble bath.
BELIEVE IN YOU.
Visualize yourself winning.
Develop a sense of humor.
Stop thinking tomorrow will be a better today.
Have goals for yourself.
Say hello to a stranger.
Look up at the stars.
Practice breathing slowly.
Do brand new things.
Stop a bad habit.
Take stock of your achievements.
Do it today.
Strive for excellence, NOT perfection.
Look at a work of art.
Maintain your weight.
Plant a tree.
Stand up and stretch.
Always have a plan B.
Learn a new doodle.
Learn to meet your own needs.
Become a better listener.
Know your limitations and let other know them too.
Throw a paper airplane.
Exercise everyday.
Get to work early.
Clean out on closet.
Take a different route to work.
Leave work early (with permission).
Remember you always have options.
Quit trying to “fix” other people.
Get enough sleep.
Praise other people.
Relax, take each day at a time. You have the rest of your life to live.

25 out of 50. Hmm not so bad. I'd say that there are just some items in the list that aren't very applicable or not everyone agrees with so it's not always possible to "get a perfect score".

Hmm... I have to write these items on post-its and bookmarks so I can place them in my notebooks, my planner and other school stuff. School is what gives me stress so I'd better make "reminders" of sorts. :)

Soon

2010-05-22T18:59:00.005+08:00

Puerto Galera in a week. Enrollment in 1.5 weeks. Classes start in 2.5 weeks. I turn fifth year in 2.5 weeks. Ugh. Sleepless nights soon. Might as well enjoy the remaining days of vacation.

***

There were a lot of people at the dental clinic this afternoon, I waited 1.5 hours for my turn but the removal of my gum stitches didn't even last 3 minutes. LOL. But it's alright, I didn't have anything to do anyway.

After a week of not being able to eat properly, I lost one kilo (which I'm sure I will regain by tomorrow) and my face became rough. I need to get back to exercising again.

***

I need to buy soon:

Japan cotton to make a short-length "yukata"
Some illustration board
Cotton with a floral pattern, garter and lace for the skirt I've been planning to make for a while now

Week Past

2010-05-18T19:06:00.006+08:00

I just got a wisdom tooth surgery last Saturday. Two teeth were supposed to be pulled but the dentist said that the other one doesn't need to be pulled anymore. My gums now have stitches. It's my first time to get stitches but seriously why does it have to be my gums?? Chewing and talking makes my left jaw hurt and sometimes, the pain extends to my left temple. Right now, I can only have milk, soup, gelatin, ice cream, mashed potatoes and mashed bananas. :(

***

I've also finished the piece Way Back Into Love. Just some more polishing needed. But I guess I'll start on another piece. I want to play a piano because I'm only using a keyboard. I love the piano feel more (even though it hurts my fingers more than when I use the keyboard). I also get this feeling that the sound of the piano is more magical (well, sorry for the lack of term).

***

My 10-year old nephew and I had Harry Potter marathons for a week. Sometimes, his 5-year old brother would watch too but he's the kind of kid who can't stay put. We just repeat the movies all over again. Haha. At least, nagsawa na ako ngayong araw. Pero malamang, uulitin ko rin yan.

***

I think we'll be in Puerto Galera from the 29th up to the 31st. Mask, snorkel and fins, why can't I have you right now?

Mockery, Fandom

2010-05-14T17:59:00.003+08:00

We should always think before we mock people because of their fandom. LOL. Or before mocking someone for their fandom, make sure you NEVER get absorbed to that fandom.

Even before the first Harry Potter movie came out, I've read the books already, at least those that were already released that time. I was in grade six when the first movie was out. None of my classmates read Harry Potter and being the fangirl that I am, some of them were mocking me for my fandom.

But when the first movie was released, the same girls who were mocking me for my fandom were all over Daniel Radcliffe and Harry Potter. We were kids back then but until now, I still find it funny.

Later in high school, fortunately, a lot of my classmates were into Harry Potter. However, I was also in love with animanga. I was among the outcasts back then (and let me make this clear, I don't blame anyone but myself for that) and some classmates would mock me for my fandom (i.e. Bleach and Naruto).

Now, guess who's reading manga and watching anime? Hahaha. Same people who were mocking me for my love for animanga. See, I don't even watch Naruto and Bleach anymore. I haven't read Naruto manga for a long time, either. But I'm always updated with Bleach because it's awesome like that.

You see, there are also people who'd mock others because they listen to Jmusic, claiming that these people don't understand what the Japanese words mean. But look who's so addicted to Korean songs. Hahaha.

In college, fortunately, I found people of my wavelength (♥). People who love anime, manga and Harry Potter. Right now, I'm not into anime and manga as much as before. I rarely watch anime. I read a few manga (and mostly shoujo). I still love Harry Potter, though.

Critical

2010-05-12T11:39:00.005+08:00

I badly need help in rearranging my room. There's so much stuff in here (because I got myself a lot of stuff already plus my family likes dumping their stuff here in my room).

Right now, I'm still in denial that I need new furniture (a bigger study table with more drawers/storage, a bookshelf with a better layout and a taller shoe rack that will occupy a smaller floor area). I'm also in denial that I need to take away some stuff (either the sewing machine or the keyboard or both). I also believe that I've already thrown away everything that I don't need (except my 3.5 years worth of Candy magazines).

I still think that my room problem can be solved by proper arranging. I just don't know how to arrange it. :( I need to solve this before school starts or else I'll have to endure the lack of free space for another year.

Music and Lyrics

2010-05-08T22:59:00.003+08:00

Kasalanan to ni Melvin. He recommended me this movie, Music and Lyrics. I downloaded it and watched it. Well, the plot revolves around the making of the song "Way Back Into Love". The movie was so adorable and now I'm addicted to the song because the lyrics are so meaningful LOL. (And yes, alam kong yun yung theme song ng Precious Hearts Romance ng ABS-CBN haha.) I also downloaded the song and when I heard the piano intro closely, I thought, "Hey, it's kinda simple, maybe I can play this." so I downloaded a music sheet and went to the old, dusty (but still very functional) keyboard.

It's the keyboard I used to practice my piano pieces back in grade school. I cleaned it and placed it on my room's floor (because I don't want to play in the living room and I have no more space in my bedroom, sadly) and tried playing the song. I can still read notes but it's difficult to get used to playing again because it's been years since I last studied a piano piece. But I'm getting by. :D Hopefully, I can finish this piece. *crosses fingers*

At least, my summer is productive. :))

And Finally

2010-05-04T18:42:00.003+08:00

...I'm done with fourth year. Prof. Castro just submitted the CE 111 grade today. Pass yo. ♥

I'd say this sem isn't my very lucky sem (not just acadswise but I'd rather not elaborate on that LOL). My grades took another nosedive yet again. But I'll just do better next academic year. Much much better.

***

Hmm, fourth year has brought me a lot of things. More friends, some dose of rabu and drama and a lot of experiences and life lessons. I still can't believe I'm gonna be fifth year this June. //IN DENIAL. I'll just make the most out of my last [undergrad] year in UP. :)

I Love This Summer

2010-04-26T20:08:00.005+08:00

I've been trying to make my summer productive. And I think I'm getting there. I've been doing exercises because I haven't gone jogging at the acad oval since the second semester ended. I also assisted in scuba class today and I was able to get my license too. I'm also taking driving lessons and I want to learn how to drive properly soon so I can get a non-pro.

Let's see if I can continue exercising and assisting in scuba class even during first sem.

Uwaaa, I hope the family's Puerto Galera trip will push through. And I really need to get rid of my wisdom teeth. Recently, my jaw clicks when I open or close my mouth . I wonder if it's because of my impacted teeth? Ohwell...

Oh, and I want to learn how to dance. I want to try Bikram yoga and fin swimming too. Yeah, suddenly, I want to do so many things. Probably because I'm bored during weekdays.

***

I miss UP because it's the first time that I'm not enrolling on a summer. If I could tambay there every other day, I would. Haha. But my parents will kill me coz I don't have any business there. And I also wouldn't want to commute in this heat. Although occasionally, I still go to UP when I have palusot. Haha. :)

I just wonder... kung isang summer pa lang miss ko na UP, pano na pagka-graduate? :( Aww...

Seven Random Things That Make Me Happy

2010-04-23T13:31:00.002+08:00

Creating things, especially those I haven't created before (i.e. headbands, hairpins, pendants, etc.)
Cleaning, organizing and decorating my room when I'm bored. Haha. Honestly, I don't like cleaning when I'm busy with other stuff.
Buying pretty clothes on sale. Because pretty and quality clothes are not easy to find and if you do see one, it's usually expensive or even overpriced. But if its on sale, it feels like I was able to get my money's worth. Orz. I got this habit from my parents.
(Window) shopping at the home section. Because I always look at baking pans, lunchboxes, random boxes and organizing containers.
Eating spicy things.
Feeling healthy. Meaning eating more fruits and less junk, exercising and a having fixed body clock.
Anything colorful or anything with swirly, flowery patterns or anything cute and pretty.

Summer Love

2010-04-19T17:18:00.003+08:00

I don't have money but I'm really happy so I have no regrets.

Last weekend, I went to Anawangin Cove with Wonwon, Yanyan, Airis, Eka (her sister), Ate Joey, Kyle, Kuya Jonats, Ate Luchi and Wigi. One of the best summer trips I've ever had because it was my first time going to the beach with friends and going camping. It was fun TRYING to do cartwheels, poi dancing and stargazing in the shore.

Anawangin is in Zambales. We went there by bus, trike and boat. There is no signal nor electricity in the place but there are a few toilets and you can draw water from the poso. There are no structures either. There were a lot of people because it's summer and it's a weekend. But it's still a lot of fun. We all want to go back but not during peak season.

We left Anawangin in the morning and when we arrived in San Antonio, we were fetched by Wonwon's brother and we went to their house. We had awesome lunch there. Adobo, mangoes and pastillas are love. Wonwon even gave me a cactus! Wheeee~

I think people should be more conscious of the environment. Yanyan and I found a can of butane in the stream near our tents. And some people still don't know how to flush toilets. SERIOUSLY, how responsible can you get. =\ It's a very pretty place. What a pity to destroy it.

Oh, another great thing, I only spent around Php1,100 for the whole trip. \o/ It was worth the enjoyment even if my body is aching right now. LOL.

Honestly, kumpleto na ang summer ko. But I still hope that my family's Puerto Galera trip will push through. :)

PS: I love you, my fabulous friends. :D

Now This is Real Vacation

2010-04-13T16:45:00.006+08:00

It's my first time in my whole college life not to enroll, seriously. Haha. But I've been a little busy the past few days. And I'll probably be a little busy the next few days as well.

Last Friday, I went to Antipolo for Aggre's sem ender. It was really fun. However Melvin broke a bone in the morning and he had to be brought to Orthopedic. I had an allergic reaction in the evening because we had drinks in the afternoon. (First time having a drink with Aggre lol)

The next day, Saturday, was AME induction and sem ender. I woke up late because I was tired from Antipolo and I arrived at Red's house at 11am. In the afternoon, I got bad news from my 156 prof. I was really stressed because of it. Although I forgot about 156 while we were swimming. I also teamed up with Red for a chicken fight! Hahaha. It's the first time I've done it (because I'm heavy and only few people can carry me... like Red, LOL). I lost to Jeselle but it was fun!

It was already night when we left Red's house (thanks Rael for the ride to SM North) and our group went to Airis's house. The rest of the group slept over Airis's house but I had to go home because my mom was going to have visitors the next day and she asked me to help her. Also, I had to answer my 156 take home finals. Ang bad timing ng 156. Akala ko naman free na ako sa acads, biglang may pahabol pa.

Yesterday, I submitted my 156 finals. I went to Trinoma in the afternoon and managed to buy a swimsuit. I'm gonna use it for Anawangin and Puerto Galera (hopefully).

Tomorrow, we have a meeting regarding OJT (dunno what's gonna happen). On Thursday, I have to go to Canlubang, Calamba for an interview (wish me luck on my adventure). On weekend, YAY BEACH WITH FABULOUS FRIENDS!!

I Love My Headboard

2010-04-04T17:54:00.004+08:00

Before:

After:

I bought the flowers in Landmark Makati long ago (I was first year high school, I think). The hands and feet were given by Treisha when we were in high school (I still love her for it!). I bought the stars and musical notes in Landmark Trinoma last January 2009 but I only got to install them yesterday. Haha. //FAIL.

Yes, I love my headboard. Just submitted the latter picture to my favorite interior design photo blog. Hahaha. And I'm gonna make the rest of my room just as colorful because I just finished general cleaning yesterday. :) //GHEI.

Right Now

2010-04-01T21:02:00.004+08:00

CE 111 finals was hopefully the last exam for this semester. It was difficult but I hope I'll pass the course. :(

Anyway, I had an ice cream date with Charm and Kuyanyan after the 111 exam. We bought half a gallon of Nestle Strawberry ice cream at the UP Coop and ate it at the sunken garden. At inilabas ko rin lahat ng sama ng loob ko sa ice cream. LOL. And sadly, nakakaumay yung flavor ng ice cream so I guess hindi na ulit ako bibili ng ganung flavor. I miss Charm and Kuyanyan. LOL.

Later on, we were joined by Kuya Wonwon, Ochan, Kim and May. I love sunken garden tambays at night. Though right now, the sunken garden gives off a few bad memories to me but I had friends with me so it was still fun. Haha. Hopefully, soon, I can chase those bad memories away.

***

My ultimate goal this week is to clean my room. As in super sparkly clean. I just cleaned my bookshelf. And I saw my high school pictures again. Haha. I'll scan and upload my senior prom picture dahil yun na ang pinakamatinong picture na nakita ko. And probably I'll upload my high school gradpic. I'll shoop it though, before uploading, nakakahiya yung kapangitan eh. :))

I still need to clean and reorganize my study table, my closet, my dresser and my shoe rack. Gotta clean everything, hoho~

***

Things About Me Right Now

I'm spending a lot of my online time looking at interior design photo blogs.
I've been inclined to dresses recently. I think I'm becoming gay-er. DX
Recovering.

Things I Want to Tell People Right Now:

Seriously, won't you ever live up to your words?
Wag ka sanang masyadong mayabang.
I miss you too~ Thanks for the perfect timing. :D
Don't you dare fail me this time. Ayokong umasa na naman sa wala dahil sa iyo. LOL.
So... these mean nothing, right? Right? XD

Things I'd Like Right Now:

A dive. Or a swim.
Ballet flats
Tankini + boyshorts (pang-beach)
Buffalo wings from Don Henrico's or Flaming Wings
Another ice cream date
Money kasi ang daming nagyayaya ngayong summer! :(
Anime and Jdrama. I haven't seen anime nor Jdrama for a looooooooong time. :((

Ending Soon

2010-03-26T22:43:00.004+08:00

"Ayoko nang mag-aral."

I've said that sentence quite a number of times this semester. Nakakapagod naman kasi talaga ang 18 units ng majors. But honestly, I can't imagine na matatapos na ang sem. 156 at 111 na lang. Summer na pala. Malapit na pala kaming mag-fifth year. Malapit na pala kaming mag-thesis. :( Next sem, pare-pareho pa rin ang classmates pero bagong mga prof na naman. Bagong schedule na naman. Hrm. Makuha kaya ako sa OJT?

Honestly, tinatamad na nga akong mag-aral pero gusto ko pa rin pumasok sa school. First time ko kasing hindi magsu-summer kaya siguradong mami-miss ko ang UP at ang mga kaibigan.

***

Iba pa rin talaga ang mga kaibigang babae. Kakampihan ka talaga laban sa mga lalaki. *rolls*

***

Kapag naka-CS daw ngayon, may bagong cellphone. Sana magkaroon ako ng bagong cellphone. Medyo may bad memories na dala ang cellphone ko sa akin. Hahahaha. At sana may pera ang nanay ko. Dahil kahit naman nangako siya sa akin, kung wala namang pera, wala naman akong magagawa. LOL.

***

I've been blogging for six years! Cheers~

For the Meantime

2010-03-22T10:48:00.002+08:00

Ayoko munang maglalakad mula Eng'g hanggang Vinzons nang mag-isa.
Ayoko munang maglakad sa paligid ng sunken garden nang mag-isa.
Ayoko munang pumunta sa KFC sa The Block.
Ayoko munang pumunta sa McDo sa SM North.
Ayoko munang pumunta sa DQ sa Trinoma at sa SM North nang mag-isa.
Ayoko munang pumunta sa Powerbooks Trinoma nang mag-isa.
Ayoko munang makakita ng pink and purple na stuffed toy.
Ayoko munang makakita ng purple na polo.
Ayoko munang makakita ng purikura.
Hindi ko rin ata kayang mag-bake sa ngayon.

Buti na lang matatapos na ang klase at most likely, OJT ako sa summer kaya pwede kong iwasan yung first two things. For the meantime.

I'll go back to studying. I just needed to let these things out.

Nice to Have Friends and Family

2010-03-20T10:02:00.006+08:00

Kahit di nila mababasa...

Thank you Melvin, Emily and Benjie. Tantan, thank you talaga sa hug kahapon.

Thank you Airis, Wigi and Kuyanyan.

Thank you Mommy and Daddy.

Thank you God. I know You did this for my good.

Adventures

2010-03-10T18:56:00.002+08:00

Tiring week was tiring. But fun weekend was fun.

163 long exam last Thursday was okay. But 111 exam last Friday night was horrible. I might have a failing standing in 111. Prof. Castro never returns long exam results so I don't exactly know. But my past two exams were terrible so... LOL. We were also given a takehome exam in 156 last Friday.

Anyway, I went to Anilao, Batangas last weekend for our field trip in scuba diving. We did four dives. The first one was basically doing the exercises (mask clearing, BC remove and replace, etc). During the second dive, we saw the underwater nipa hut installed by Sir Dick and his peers. Unfortunately, I ran low on air immediately so I had to ascend with Sofia while the others continued diving. We had lunch by the beach. Afterwards, we were just swimming and skin diving and when we get tired, we lie down the rafts or by the shore. It was sunny but the weather wasn't hot and the sea breeze was cold so I couldn't take off my wetsuit.

We went back to Sir Dick's house and had early dinner. We were just playing, eating, sharing stories, drinking and watching TV and movies. I was also trying to answer my 156 take home exam in the common room but I couldn't get past the first item so I gave up and decided to have fun.

The next day, we went to the pier and rode a boat to get to the last two dives. The first was the Cathedral. My right ear couldn't equalize properly and the current was so strong so I had to fin hard and my legs were already tired. Kuya Philip and I got separated from the rest so we ascended and then descended after the bangkeros brought us to where Sir Dick and the rest were. We fed fish (there were a lot of them and they bite! It was like a fish attack, haha). Again, I was the first to run low on air. LOL.

The last dive was at twin rocks where the slope was really steep and the current was strong. It was tiring (and I was still having difficulty equalizing my right ear) but we saw schools of fish and a pawikan so it was worth it. I'm kinda jealous that Sir Dick was able to touch the pawikan but I couldn't catch up with it because it was swimming fast and deeper. Again, I was first to run low on air. But Sofia said I lasted longer this time than the previous dives so I guess I got better.

We had lunch again, rested a bit, wrote on our dive logbooks and then went home.

Well, I got a tan line in my wrists (because of wearing the wetsuit all the time), a lot of abrasions in my feet and hands and new friends. It was fun! I'll save up money and join another dive in Anilao and practice my breathing and finning (I need to stop hyperventilating underwater so I can save my air). I really want to see a whale shark.

Scuba exam last Monday. I wasn't present during the lecture but I was able to research some stuff and there were also questions related to fluid mechanics so I was still able to answer most questions. Still got a book report in 123 due on Tuesday. A quiz in 132 on Friday and a paper/documentation(?) in 132 due next Friday. Uguuu... pahinga please.

Recalling Friday Nights

2010-02-26T22:27:00.002+08:00

It's a Friday night and I don't know how to spend it. So I'm going through my plurk timeline and recalling what I did during the Friday nights of 2010.

Feb19 - studying for ES Quiz Contest
Feb12 - Sleepover at Airis's house
Feb5 - too busy sulking, feeling bad that week
Jan29 - CE Culminating night
Jan22 - Engg Summit
Jan15 - IDK, probably forcing myself to do the 156 takehome exam
Jan 8 - IDK again, probably trying to study or getting ready for a busy weekend

...mew. The only fun Friday nights should be Feb12 and Jan29... but my parents scolded me like whoa last Jan29 night so that leaves Feb12. Wow. Nice, 2010. To think that before, I almost always spend my Friday nights in Trinoma or SM or Gateway. -____- We have a long exam in CE 111 next Friday, 5pm to 8pm. Sad. I wonder when I'll be able to spend a nice Friday night again.

Suddenly, I remember CHECK-OUT DIVE IN BATANGAS NEXT WEEKEND! Can't wait!

***

Maybe I'll just study a little CE 163 (exam is on Thursday) and then go to sleep.

Perstaym

2010-02-15T21:52:00.001+08:00

Pestaym mag-Feb 14 nang hindi single.

Nagpunta sa Trinoma. Nag-DQ tapos niyaya ko siyang mag-purikura sa TimeZone. Ayaw niya kasi ang bading-bading raw nung booth pero wala naman siyang nagawa haha. Nag-basketball pa tapos ni-try ko yung DDR after 10 years, di na ako marunong hahaha. Ang tagal-tagal ko nang hindi nag-TimeZone.

Tapos Loverage4. First UP fair ever. Ang saya pala. LOL. Wala akong nakitang JJ (well meron sa harap pero nasa likod kami kaya malayo at hindi ko sila nasilayan). Sumakay dun sa mga kiddie rides at nag-wall climbing (medyo fail ako haha). At may napanalunan pala siyang monkey plushie dun sa mga perya-like booths doon. Haha.

Sad lang, hindi ko dinala yung camera kasi natakot akong manakawan. Aww.

Lazy

2010-02-13T20:55:00.004+08:00

I'm such a lazy person. :( I'd seriously rather make desserts right now instead of study. I just made ganache a while ago. I'll turn it into chocolate almond truffles later.

I have a lot to do. Group presentation on Tuesday and a long exam on Thursday. It's a relief that the 132 quiz (which is supposed to be on Friday) got postponed. ES Quiz on Saturday. It'll be a waste of registration fee if I don't study for it.

***

Last Thursday, I was alone in the kitchen. I was frosting the cake for the boy. Suddenly a brownout. Total darkness. Initially, I got annoyed because I was in the middle of working and I was about to finish already! But eventually, I realized I was lucky because I've already baked the cake and whipped the cream before the brownout came. If not, it would have been a waste.

***

I guess I'll stop dropping by the mall. Yesterday, I went to SM because I was going to buy my gift for Airis. But I also bought pretty sticky notes from the bookstore, Alichino volume 1 from Book Sale and a hair clip. FFFF... So much for unwanted expenses. Guuuh. I just bought ingredients for the desserts this week too! This is why I'm a little broke. :(

***

*sigh* I missed AME people a lot. Sleepover party yesterday at Airis's house. I haven't seen them in ages! I love you guys~

Petiks

2010-02-06T00:19:00.006+08:00

I noticed in a recent picture that my face got chubbier whyyyyyyy. I don't notice it when I gain or lose weight but I noticed it now! Must be gaining a lot. Just when I started exercising. Would it have been better if I didn't exercise? :( So starting tomorrow, I'm on a semi-diet. Not the strict diet. That kind of diet where you just eat something light whenever you're hungry.

***

Petiks mode lately. I should be reading that book for 123. I'm not. Should be reviewing open channel flow, hydrologic routing and biochemical oxygen demand lately. I'm not. Got pressure lately. Got a lot of problems lately. Been going home early lately. Been sleeping too much lately. I've been getting the feeling of simply wanting the days to pass by. Maybe that's why I sleep a lot.

Last week, I got on a fight with my parents (esp. Mom). After that, problems just started piling up. (my tear ducts got overworked this week) Now my parents and I are already okay. They even bought me ponkans because they know that I'm really sad right now and I love ponkans. So much.

All Work and No Play

2010-01-30T09:49:00.006+08:00

That's what's gonna happen to me from hereon because I've been ordered to do so.

So I guess, goodbye life.

I'll see you after two years, when I get boarded and I get a job. Oh damn, I can't wait to get boarded, get a job, leave this hellhole and get my life back again.

I just hope they take back that order because it's a very irrational order.

Life Update

2010-01-24T00:08:00.003+08:00

I've improved my stamina. :)

***

I've been spending the last three weekends doing academic things. Now that I don't have an upcoming exam, I'm not so sure how to spend my weekend anymore. So I started with my 156 homework that's due on Friday. I had planned to read the CE 123 book but I didn't get motivated enough to read it. I read Tanaka Meka's Faster than a Kiss instead. I stopped reading the updates eversince I got busy with Engg Week.

***

I went to AyalaLand Inc. last Wednesday along some CE people for a job shadowing program organized by the ESC. I haven't been to that part of Makati in years! It was nice because we got to talk to AyalaLand's and MDC's top people (who are also CE graduates from UP!). I even got to ask them loads of questions for our 123 report. LOL. Oh, and another nice thing is I made new friends. :3

I just think that I might be attending these things too early. I'm only in fourth year and I'm not planning to get a job until I get boarded and finish a masters degree, which will take a minimum of two years after graduation. But I dunno... I like attending these things because somehow, I get a tiny preview of the 'real world'. And sometimes, I also get inspired.

***

I want to go to Flaming Wings. ;;____;; I also want to go to Five Cows. Oh, and TimeZone, haven't been there in so many months.

2010

2010-01-09T20:48:00.004+08:00

This year:

stop dozing off or drifting away in class
OJT on summer
learn how to drive (this one's been postponed too many times)
get my wisdom teeth extracted
lose weight
gain some stamina
be a licensed diver
lessen cramming and procrastinating
makakaboto na ako sa Mayo
ay @#$%^&*&^% magte-thesis na ako sa June. AAAAAAA DO NOT WANT ;;_____;;
save up and buy a new phone

Been doing my 132 homework since the morning (with internet and meal breaks of course). Okay, sige, nararamdaman ko na. May pasok na nga talaga. :| At maraming homeworks/exams hanggang 21.

***

Nung Wednesday, tinanong ako ni Elvin kung gusto kong mag-PubCom or LogiCom para sa Bridge Building sa CE Days. Buti naman at natuto akong tumanggi. Ayaw ko muna. This time, gusto ko muna mag-focus sa ilang bagay na pinabayaan ko simula noong maging busy ako sa Engg Week.

***

And I need to go shopping at the home section before those end-of-the-year-sales end. I need a nice lunchbox and muffin pans. The springform pan and the flats/sandals can wait. Money plz. ;;_____;;

Cheers!

2009-12-31T23:19:00.007+08:00

Come to think of it, a lot of things happend this 2009.

I joined UP Aggregates, Inc. last January. I met a lot of CE people (finally!) and I made a lot of new friends!
I enrolled in Hapon 10 last summer. My first formal training in Japanese language and my first time to have that many AME people as my classmates because I rarely have AME classmates. LOL, even our prof, Weng-sensei, is from AME! XD
I went to Hong Kong and Macau last May. I left Luzon for the first time!
I celebrated my 20th birthday last September by bringing cake to school, taking a difficult exam and having a surprise sleepover at an orgmate's house (and we're not even close and yes, I did not go home that day!) All because of Ondoy. Stupid stupid tropical depression. >_>
I passed CE 155. They say it's one of the most (if not the most) difficult subjects in BS CE. I was really afraid of failing! Ahuuu~
November = *insert heart here*
My first Engg Week this December! I headed an event and became a mommy for Miss Aggre. SUPER HAGGARD! But fun, nonetheless. XD

It has been a stressful year for me. I was reading through my 2009 blog entries yesterday and noticed that (probably because I'm already in fourth year and I joined another org). Hahaha. But it's still fun. I probably won't forget this year. :)

Cheers to a happy new year!

More Vacation Please

2009-12-29T14:34:00.004+08:00

CE 111 exam on January 6. That's a week from now. ;;_____;; I haven't studied a bit but I guess I'll just study on January 2. Haha. I'm too lazy. I want to enjoy vacation more.

***

Oh, I'm now a registered voter. Buti na lang na-extend.

***

And I need to wash a lot of clothes. >_< Orz.

***

Things to do when school starts:

Give gifts to some people.
Have choco chip mint ice cream from SC.
Eat at KFC Technohub with my my batchmates (esp. the girl friends)
Flaming Wings! I miss it so much. I always go there with Ate Mic but she's in Poland right now so I'll have to drag someone.
Friday nights with AME friends. Ahuhuhu... I mishu guys.
Gemdrei is going home this January. Imma treat her to Rodic's or something dahil feeling ko sawa na siya sa Korean food. XD
Jogging. I started losing weight last sembreak but I regained them this Christmas vacation.

When I Started to Feel Christmas

2009-12-25T23:38:00.003+08:00

It was already the 24th when I started to feel Christmas.

Last Wednesday, I went to Buddy Ali's place with Airis, Ate Raine, Earle, Lolo Klaine and Kuyanyan to visit her. Afterward, we went to Trinoma while Ate Raine went home and Earle went to work. I bought some gifts and some groceries. We also went to Bubble Tea. I missed that place! I missed AME friends. TT_____TT

I got a little scolding for arriving home at almost 12 midnight. Hahaha. And I saw an epic surprise when I turned my lights on. *hearts* Even my parents got kilig. Ahahahaha.

And then yesterday, I was working in the kitchen almost nonstop. Ahuhu. I was helping mom with all the cooking. I also made two batches of oatmeal cookies and two batches of food for the gods. We went to the 10:30pm mass and had noche buena afterwards. We had steak and seafood pasta and the cake from my boyfriend. I also gave gifts to my family. :D

Swish and Flick

2009-12-21T11:47:00.004+08:00

Just a simple wish list. I still can't feel Christmas.

a music box
nonstick muffin pans
nonstick springform pan
an airtight lunch box with partitions
Dairy Queen GC's
shirts with nice prints
casual empire-cut dresses
anything cute/sweet (tangible or not, consumable or not)

But seriously, I'm such a shallow person. Little things make me happy.

Epic Week

2009-12-20T12:21:00.005+08:00

Tapos na ang Engg Week~ Kaso magiging busy naman ako sa pagluluto at pag-aaral. :( And I have a problem: I can't feel Christmas. D:

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THURSDAY

AggregatES Quiz is done. Maraming problema but it's done. I'll make sure that the next AggregatES Quiz head will do a much better job next year. Salamat sa lahat ng tumulong lalo na kina Kuya Berto at Kuya Steve na sobrang na-hassle dahil sa akin. Salamat din kina Joseph, Melvin, Kuya Alvin S., Kevin, Elvin, Kuya Romeo, Jericho, Roxanne, Pcar, Kuya David at basta sa lahat ng tumulong.

***

FRIDAY

Miss Engineering pageant. Congratulations to Miss Aggregates (kahit hindi nanalo) and to all the contestants. Hindi ako contestant pero masasabi kong sobrang hirap ng ginawa nila. Lahat sila ay tunay na mga lalaki. Woot!

MISS AGGRE: kahit hindi ka nanalo, the best ka pa rin, lalo na ang talent mo. Hahaha. At maganda ka pa rin kahit ang laki ng braso mo. LOL.

Woke up at 4am that Friday. Pageant ended at 2am and I slept at 4am. Woot 24 hours of pagod. Salamat pala sa lahat ng tumulong, sumuporta at nagpahiram ng damit kay Miss Aggregates: Ate Debs, Kuya David, Mommy Jugs, Mommy Pcar, Roxanne, Irene, Sarah Kuya Carl, Ate Ands, Ate Ching, Ate Sav, Kuya Alvin S. at sana wala akong nakalimutan. AGGRE... GREAT!!!

Promise talaga super pagod ako sa pagiging mommy. Next year, ayoko nang mag-mommy pero tutulong pa rin talaga ako sa Miss Aggregates 2010 para kung sinuman ang mommy niya, hindi mababaliw katulad ko, haha.

At hindi pala ako nakapag-lantern parade dahil sa pageant. :(

***

SATURDAY

AME Christmas party! Nung bandang hapon, super pagod pa rin ako na inisip kong wag na lang pumunta pero super miss ko na ang AME so pumunta ako (medyo late, though). Nakita ko si Ali-budz. Ahuhu... BUDDY I MISSED YOU. We haven't seen each other for two years!!! Sayang di ko naipakilala si Numi kay Ali (kasi nung dumating si Numi, wala na si Ali)

I missed you, AME. Bawi ako sa January. :)

Salamat pala sa gift! Charm, Wigi, MamaRach at Reenaru~ *hearts*

One More Week

2009-12-12T17:31:00.002+08:00

I've been busy like hell the past weeks. Mostly because of acads and Engineering Week. It's already Engg Week and it's my first time to participate. It's only been a day for me and it's very very tiring. Haggard kung haggard. But I swear, the fun makes the stress worth it. :) I kinda feel bad that I joined an academic org a little late because I'll only get to experience Eng'g Week twice (this year and next). But I guess, at least, I get to experience it. XD

Right now, I feel a little relieved because I got rid of some problems already. Just one more week and eveything will be done!

Fight!

Pagkatapos nito, full acad mode na talaga. Haha.

Two More Weeks

2009-12-06T11:09:00.005+08:00

Less than one week until Eng'g Week.
Less than two weeks until AggregatE.S. Quiz.
Less than two weeks until Lantern Parade.
Less than two weeks until I see my buddy, Ali, again. *hearts*
Less than two weeks until Miss Eng'g pageant.
Two weeks until Christmas vacation.

***

No more moneys. Ang laki ng budget deficit (mostly dahil sa mga Saturday activities at wala naman akong allowance kapag Saturday). At magpa-Pasko na. At walang pera. May regalo na sa mga kapatid pero credit card ni Mommy yung ginamit ko doon so hindi ko pa nababayaran. Hahaha. Kamusta naman. =)) Oh well~ Oh well~

***

I just bought a pair of board shorts. And I need a pair of running shoes. Aww...

Hi

2009-11-22T20:57:00.005+08:00

Hi, I'm here to say I'm still alive despite all these things. But I hope I don't die at the end of the week.

Miss Engg pictorial on Saturday. Four attires and a handmade rock instrument.
AME no Jidai on Saturday. Merch booth decors and prizes.
ES Quiz in less than a month. Questions,
Acads hasn't striken yet. But I think I have a 132 exam on Wednesday. @____@
And a few commissions.

I know, I know. It's my fault for being such a crammer and for taking so much responsibilities. It's just that I didn't know they'll happen all at once.

***

My life just made a huge turn. It still feels weird and surreal, i dunno. LOL.

Active

2009-11-13T20:45:00.002+08:00

Excited.

Saturday. Shopping with mom. :)
Sunday. I'll be going to the open ship of the M/S Fuji Maru with some AME people! I wasn't excited until I saw it on the news this morning (I was in the bus, going to school.) Too bad the open ship will only last for an hour.
Monday. First meeting of SCUBA diving class! I hope Pyor and Niru will be able to prerog.
Wednesday. I'm going jogging! Ayiaaa~ Because I need to improve my stamina.

Pero hindi naman sobrang excited. Baka ma-Murphy's Law ako. LOL.

***

I miss Flaming Wings. ;;______;; Let's go to Katipunan! LOL.

***

Bibo ako sa klase. Hindi naman bibo to the point na parang dalawa na lang kami ng prof ang nag-uusap (dahil merong mga ganung tao). OA naman yun. Basta ako yung tipo ng estudyanteng nagre-recite basta nagtanong yung prof at alam ko yung sagot. Minsan feeling ko, naiirita na yung mga kaklase ko sa akin dahil madalas akong naka-recite. Ahuhu. Sorry talaga. Inaantok kasi talaga ako kapag hindi ako nagre-recite eh. Tapos madalas, parang nakakahiya sa prof kapag sobrang simple ng tanong niya tapos marami namang nakaaalam pero walang may gustong sumagot. Parang... wala lang. Kung ako kasi yung prof, ang pangit ng feeling na hindi ka pinapansin ng kinakausap mo. I mean, sino bang taong nakikipag-usap ang gustong hindi sila pinapansin? D:

I know, I know, sadyang may mga taong tahimik o kaya passive o kaya mahiyain. Kaso, di ako kasali dun. LOL. Active ako eh.

Ayun. So feeling ko, tone down muna. Hahaha. Mahirap na. Kahit na ba wala akong masamang ginagawa e. LOL.

Hot and Cold

2009-11-07T13:43:00.000+08:00

After four weeks of worrying over 155, our prof finally submitted our grades. And I frckn passed. And my grade was higher than what I wanted/expected. I've been praying for a passing grade in 155 for a looooong time. Thank you, God.

But right now, I feel sad. I did something to my friend; something that a friend is not supposed to do. It's the second time I made this person disappointed. I'm even disappointed with myself. And whenever I try to fix it, it ends up worse. I don't know if it's purely my fault or what. I don't really know. But right now, I'm trying very hard not to talk to the person for the meantime because I might just add more fuel to the fire.

Kagagawa ko lang ng resolution na magpapakabait na ako, pero eto na naman. TT_____TT LOL ganun yata ako kasama at nahihirapan akong magpakabait. :))

*sigh*

Naiiyak na lang ako sa dami ng gagawin (at gagastusin) ko before November 28. Goodbye, sweet weekends.

War Zone

2009-10-31T23:32:00.006+08:00

When November comes, my head will be a war zone

Engg Week. It's my first time to participate! And I've been assigned to certain activities so I really want to do my best.
AME no Jidai. Merch booth head, etc. And it coincides with the Miss Eng'g pictorial. :(( *sob* I wonder what I should do.
Acads. LOL. During second sem last year, my grades took a nosedive. Last sem, it did another. And I know it's because I don't put enough effort. I always procrastinate, I always cram. And I hate it when I am unable to give my best. That's why this time, I have to do my best again. :)
Logicom. Since I have a lot of free time this sem (unlike last sem) I can do more Logiwork now. :)

At this rate, I guess I won't be going out on Fridays until Eng'g Week is finished.

***

I haven't gone out with friends this sembreak. So sad. First it was my mom "grounding" me after going home a little late from Induction (Before, I'd go home much later and they wouldn't care/ But because she was tired from work that day, she just wanted to vent it out on me so there.) Now the grounded thing isn't in effect anymore but I have little money right now because I spent it on something else. :(

And damn it's already enrollment on Wednesday. I just finished all my requirements last Wednesday! I haven't even had a taste of vacation. I've only done three to four things in my long to-do-on-sembreak list. And 155 grade still isn't out (it's been 3 weeks since it was supposed to come out). *sigh*

And 18 units of majors (111, 123, 132, 141, 156, 163) plus PE (SCUBA Diving) next sem. *sigh* I actually got 21 units in CRS but I'll cancel CE 22 because I'm not planning to commit suicide. Oh by the way, it's the first time I've been this lucky in CRS (i.e. getting all I need including PE)

I'm not yet ready. ;;______;;

***

Drabbles:

My days were peaceful. A little boring but still peaceful and I like it that way. You just had to ruin it, you meanie. But I won't allow it to continue, my dear. My peaceful days, I'll bring them back.
It's like a sinusoid. It goes up and down and up and down and etc.
You're telling me to do something but your actions give me reasons to do the opposite.
Isn't it disappointing when your concern is taken for granted?

Not-So-Sembreak

2009-10-22T23:38:00.003+08:00

I just did my end-of-the sem cleaning. I threw away a lot of stuff. I managed to clear my study desk from all those papers and I also cleaned my shoe racks. I got rid of three pairs of shoes but I'm planning to get 3 new pairs before the year ends so... err...

Tomorrow, I'll clean my shelf and my windows and wash some plushies.

I'm not yet exactly on sembreak. I still have a lab report due on Monday. And if I don't pass CE 155, the removals is on November 9, which means I'll be spending the "sembreak" studying 155 if I don't get a passing grade. I really pray that I pass. I'll really jump in happiness if I get a 3.0. :(

My new sembreak plans:

Clean my room and my stuff.
Register at COMELEC.
Watch Eden of the East and Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood.
Read shoujo manga.
Organize my manga files and burn some of them (my disk space is dwindling).
Make merch booth decorations.
Make cute mini top hats and lacy headbands.

I really have to make the most of this very short break.

Some stuff I want to tell some people:

You're more annoying than it seems.
I still can't imagine how you can read through me. And through chat? No waaaay.
Okay, I kinda miss you too.
It seems that you really want that person to love you. Let me tell you something: you can't force love. And stop showing the world that you are miserable. If you want to know what miserable is, watch YouTube videos of Ondoy or something.
It's been a long time. I missed these. :))

Still Alive

2009-10-15T09:37:00.004+08:00

I love love love FIC's mint chocolate chip ice cream. I now swear my loyalty to it. When Gemdrei gets back from Korea, I'll eat this with her (after we eat spicy ramyeon).

***

I really can't wait for sembreak. Though feeling ko mami-miss ko ang batchmates ko (and our random lunches in random places) during sembreak. LOL.

Things left to do this semester:

GE 12 topographic map
GE 12 third long exam
CE 121 lab report

Ayiaaa~ That's assuming I will get exempted in GE 12, CE 16 and 110. X_______X And I hope so. I got exempted in 162 but I'll take finals on Wednesday. Ang baba kasi ng grade ko. :(

***

Induction on Saturday. Isn't that nice? I'm no longer busy during that time. Yaaay~

***

Things to do on sembreak

Register at COMELEC.
CLEAN MY ROOM. UNTIL IT'S SPARKLY.
Learn how to drive (this one has been postponed way too many times).
Get my wisdom tooth extracted. FFFF or should I postpone this for summer?
Make mini top hats and other handmade stuff (I miss working with my hands).
Merch booth decorations.
Read loads of shoujo manga.

Is that too much for two weeks? LOL.

Ten Things

2009-10-02T22:02:00.007+08:00

I want to:

go on a vacation. Hong Kong or Palawan or Camarines Sur.
swim, dive, see corals and fishes.
get blue or violet or blonde highlights on my hair. Or get it dyed a color somewhere between brown and burgundy.
get two more piercings on my ears.
read loads of shoujo manga.
watch the new season of Heroes.
eat mint chocolate chip ice cream.
hang out with AMEms.
make things.
~~fall in love.~~ sleep and sleep and sleep.

Haha, that was random. :)

September 26, 2009

2009-09-29T00:45:00.002+08:00

Empty bat. GE 12 exam na ayoko nang alalahanin. Hindi makaalis ng UP pero pinalayas ng guard sa Eng'g kaya nakituloy kina Kuya Tonton (Teacher's Village) kasama ang Aggre people. 11am na kinabukasan nang makauwi.

Hinding-hindi ko malilimutan ever ang 20th birthday ko (kahit hindi ko siya na-feel).

Masaya ako dahil buhay na buhay kami ng pamilya ko at mataas lugar namin kaya walang baha. At hindi rin ako nagutom dahil pinakain kami ni Kuya Tonton. And even though I didn't spend the day with my family, I didn't have to spend it alone, stranded in the streets. :)

Thank you talaga, God. Pero sana matulungan din yung ibang tao. :( Daming nangangailangan ng tubig dito sa barangay namin.

And I'm still very worried about Jo. :(

Hell Weeks Coming Up

2009-09-18T23:21:00.003+08:00

Today I was trying to decide whether to go home early or go with AMEms to Trinoma for Cor, Ate Neji and Earle's birthday celebration. Even if I really want to hang out, I chose to go home early because Dad just got home from a fieldwork in Mindoro (and I was so sure he'll be doing the laundry when he arrives so he'll need help with other chores) and I don't think I can get away with arriving home late today because I just went to a sleepover last week (and my parents think I've been hanging out a lot, though I'm not really. But still I don't want to get on their bad side). Besides, I really have a lot of shit to do (i.e. acads).

But I'm a little bored. Well, I've processed the data for the CE 16 lab report but I'm not yet in the mood to do other things because I'm tired (Actually, my only class for today was canceled but I had to do experiments in other subjects). I tried reading some shoujo manga but I felt disinterested after a while (or maybe because I've ran out of titles already). I've been getting bored with the internet lately (which is a good thing because it becomes less distracting). I was really looking for something to do because I don't want to go to sleep yet.

And I realized, had I gone hanging out with AMEms, I've probably just arrived home and I won't be bored. Then again, had I gone hanging out with AMEms, my Dad will be more tired than he is now and I won't be done with CE 16 data-processing. Next time, when hell weeks are finished

***

Been getting bored easily recently. Maybe I should do things I haven't been doing a lot, like watching movies or making hats.

My weekend:

do my laundry
clean my room
bake food for the gods (commission for my older brother)
bake oatmeal cookies
study CE 155 (kailangan bumawi!)
study CE 110 (to make up for my absence last Thursday)
study GE 12 (exam next week)
CE 16 labrep (so I won't have to cram a lot next week)

Damn, at this rate, I might not be able to go to the deliberations on Monday. :( It's my dad's birthday on Sunday too and my mom says we'll be going out for lunch so I have less time.

Next Level

2009-09-17T17:35:00.004+08:00

Alam kong ibang level na ang katamaran ko kapag:

nagsimula akong mag-cut ng klase nang walang dahilan (kundi katamaran)
wala na akong ibang gustong gawin kundi matulog nang matulog nang matulog
bigla kong naisip na trip kong mag-LOA (dahil wala lang, tinatamad lang pero di ko rin naman gagawin)

Paano ba kasi naibabalik ang motivation? Paano ba naiiaalis ang katamaran sa katawan? Bakit nga ba ang sarap matulog? Bakit nga ba parang nilalamon ng gawaing bahay (i.e. pagluluto, paglalaba, paglilinis at iba pa) ang mga weekend ko?

***

Pero ang astig kanina. Medyo napagalitan kami ni Dr. Que kasi may pina-analyze siya sa amin last meeting tapos walang makasagot sa amin ngayon. Actually, may naisip akong sagot pero lol, hindi naman siya tama. Ayun. Kaya napunta kami sa accounting ng oras. At ayun nilista niya ang oras na nakalaan sa acads at sa tulog bawat week at marami pang natirang oras (na pwede raw gamitin sa pagsisimba, panonood ng sine, pagta-TimeZone, etc). Kaya mamaya mag-aaccounting ako ng oras ko bawat week. Tignan natin. :)

Minsan kasi iniisip ko kulang yung 24 hours a day, pero baka nagkakamali ako.

***

Malapit na ang AME Fair. Tapos Eng'g Week pa. Kaloka. Kaya mula ngayon, bawal nang magpakatamad. -____-

Tinamaan Ako Kanina...

2009-09-12T18:39:00.006+08:00

...ng alkohol at allegries.

Ang bilis ko palang tamaan pero ang tagal kong malasing (LOL pareho kami ni Kuya Ron). Sarap kasi nung mga hinalo nila eh, lalo na ung milkshake, hahaha.

Ayan tuloy ngayon... allergies huhuhu. Sa torso at konti sa arms. Kaya nga pagdating ko sa bahay kahit SOBRANG lamig ng tubig, naligo ako agad. Ang init kasi ng feeling nung allergies eh. I wonder until when they will last.

But... I dunno... parang less itchy na yung feeling ngayon or maybe it's because of the cold weather.

***

Ah, hindi ko alam kung anong dapat kong gawin sa buhay ko para ganahan ako. Yung mga bagay na dating nagpapasaya sa akin, kinawawalan ko na ng gana. Labo.

***

Storm is coming.

***

Gusto kong mag-Powerbooks ulit. Katulad nung dati. Yung nagbabasa lang ako ng crafts, architecture or interior design books. Noon kasi may free time pa ako na pwede kong i-spend mag-isa. Ngayon parang wala na. :(

***

Medyo corny talaga ang buhay ko ngayon kaya nga wala na akong maisulat eh. Lol.

Look Into My Eyes...

2009-09-05T00:45:00.006+08:00

...and you will see dark circles under them. They're getting more noticeable! I need to buy a concealer. :( I hope I'll be able to use it though. I'm lazy when it comes to applying [loose] powder, lip balm, etc. What more, concealer?

***

Twice this week, I had no problem staying up until 4am (or even getting no sleep at all) because of studying, I mean, cramming... but the same day, I flop at my bed at 7:30pm and find myself awake 9:30 am the next day. Great.

And I've gotten quite careless. I'm starting to get the cough/colds combo now and I really think it's because of lack of sleep.

***

Say you've been concentrated on this one thing for a long time now and the efforts are not paying off well. Ah, that's so depressing. Or maybe it's just because of lack of effort. I dunno.

***

Now I got reassured that this laziness is not solely due to lack of motivation but also due to burnout (or something like that). Now how do you get motivated again?

***

Ah, I've forgotten about my exercise. I should go back to that nightly routine.

***

Things I Want to Tell People:

Na-realize kong ganyan din naman ako. Kaya naiintindihan ko.
Ngayon naiintindihan ko na ang ginagawa mo saken noon... dahil ginagawa ko na siya ngayon. Mabuti nang naintindihan ko. XD
Hmm, seems fishy... pero baka nag-aassume lang ako. Sana nga LOL.
Alam mo bang ngayong araw na to, may nakita akong around tatlo taong akala ko ikaw. Hahahaha. Hindi naman pala. Akala ko lang.

Chances, Choices, Pride and Regrets

2009-08-21T21:59:00.005+08:00

I was about to open Box A already. But Box B came up suddenly. It was a hard decision, I can only choose one and both were rare chances. I knew what was inside Box B and I WANT it. I just don't want to be dependent on it anymore. I wanted to improve on my temperance. My pride told myself that I should know how to live without what's inside Box B. On the other hand, I had an idea what was inside Box A and thought choosing Box A would improve myself.

And then when I opened Box A... there goes disappointment. It wasn't what I expected. It wasn't worth the choice. It wasn't worth giving up Box B. Had I known, I would have just put my pride aside for a while and choose Box B, even if it meant that I was still dependent on it.

Ah, regrets. I really hate having regrets.

Stupid pride, I believe it's your fault.

Well, once I get another chance to choose again and Box B is among the choices, I guess I'll take it. That's the only way to dissolve the regret. I just don't know when that chance will come or if it will ever come again. :(

Lesson learned: LINTEK NA PRIDE YAN! Hahahaha!

***

So much shite to do. I can sense hell coming. Seven weeks na lang pala ang klase! Dami pang requirements, labreps, exams, etc! Kakaloka.

Sparkling Free Time

2009-08-18T22:16:00.002+08:00

Ang sarap nang walang exam ngayong linggo, nang walang due na lab rep ngayong linggo, nang walang pasok bukas at sa Friday, nang walang GAANONG iniisip ngayong linggo, etc! Next week pa ang mga lab reports at exams! Woot!

It's nice to be free for a while.

***

I've been trying to draw again and learn how to use color pencils the past few days. That's because I had ~*free time*~ *throws confetti*. I even asked Kuya Juts to teach me color pencils *sends sparkles to Kuya Juts*. I'd also like to learn how to color with watercolor and watercolor pencils because I love watercolor a lot.

***

Things I want to tell people:

Unconsciously yata, nasasaktan kita. Sorry. I'm so sorry. I'll try to be more sensitive from now on.
Lagi pala kitang tinitignan, ngayon ko lang napansin... uhh btw, hindi kita type. Duh. Kulang na nga lang, manlisik yung mata ko pag nakatingin ako sayo eh. Hindi kasi talaga ako mapalagay kung anong gusto mong mangyari o kung gini-guilt trip mo lang ba ako, etc. Isa lang ang alam ko -- nakakainis ka na talaga.
Sa totoo lang, hindi ko malaman kung dapat ba akong ma-amuse sa nangyayari sayo o kung maaawa ba ako. Kasalanan mo rin kasi eh. :(
Gaaaahd, wag masyadong makapal ang mukha. Wag masyadong feeling close. Wag masyadong magmagaling kung hindi naman magaling. Matuto namang mag-sorry kung natamaan mo sa ulo ang isang tao. Respect, please?

***

Ang dami kong gustong isulat, nalimutan ko nang lahat, haha.

What a Mess

2009-08-15T00:05:00.002+08:00

I'm already at my limit but I still keep taking up responsibilities. I know this is very wrong and I seriously don't know what the hell is wrong with me. Baliw na ba talaga ako? O makakalimutin lang ba talaga ako at nalilimutan kong may other responsibilities pa ako kaya tumatanggap ako ng mga bago? Or do I have the desire to prove myself (kung oo, alam ko na sino ang may kasalanan pero hindi ko gets kung bakit ko kailangan gawin yun)? Or do I simply want to do these things, I just don't have the time (or proper time management)?

And this week, I finally screwed up. I screwed up with a lot of things. I usually get frustrated at someone who ignores his/her responsibilities so now, I'm definitely frustrated at myself. I fail. I'm no longer taking anymore responsibilities until I finish everything.

I need a break. I'm looking forward to the long weekend coming up so I can fix myself. I'm such a mess.

***

I want/need:

motivation and inspiration, AS IN I SUPER NEED THIS.
chocolate chip mint ice cream (kahit kakakain ko lang nito nung Wednesday)
to jog or brisk walk around the acad oval
to do a lot of things... and I mean A FRCKN LOT.
to unhook myself from the internet
to clean my room
to make banoffee pie
to draw
rest, vacation

***

I'm wearing my old dress tomorrow for the Aggre Alumni Homecoming/Induction and I still don't have a purse, a pair of heels and decent accessories. I'm totally made of fail.

***

I think magkakasakit na ako anytime.

Na Naman

2009-08-07T21:56:00.003+08:00

I didn't register for the Engineering Marketing Congress. I couldn't decide properly until the last minute. I just knew about this marketing congress thing a week ago, it's too soon for me to make a decision. Uhh, actually, I forgot about it this week. >_< So I didn't get to think about it much. I'll probably just attend the seminars if they allow sit-ins.

***

I know there's something wrong with me when I:

cut class. Even more if it's the one and only class of the day and there's an exam in that subject the next day.
cram with practically every subject and every requirement: homeworks, exams, etc.
complain with practically everything and everyone. :\

Stressed with school perhaps? I mean, I love my course and all, I'm probably just saturated with all the studying, requirements, etc.

***

Happy birthday Nessa~~~ *insert sparkles here* Thanks for the Mud Pie Blizzard! We're getting old, damnit. DDDDDDDX

***

Stuff I'd like to tell people:

If you want to be miserable that much, bahala ka sa buhay mo, wag ka na lang papansin at wag ka rin mandamay ng iba.
Hindi ko na alam kung ano pang gusto mong mangyari o kung ano pang gusto mong gawin ko. Ewan ko sayo. :\ For now, tatanggapin ko na lang na hindi na tayo babalik sa dati.
Hay nako, mahiya naman kayo nang konti. >_>
You never fail to make me smile. Thanks. :)

Lurking in the Home Section

2009-08-05T22:41:00.009+08:00

I thought, if I were given unlimited time and funds for shopping, I'd probably spend the same amount of time and money in the ladies section and in the home section. :\

I found this black, plastic bentou box with sakura prints in Japan Home Center. They're so cute, I really had to fight the urge of [impulse] buying them. The material doesn't look strong so I didn't buy it. But because Celestine said they're good for their price (Php88), I got encouraged to buy it. LOL. They're really cute, anyway.

And I found another life partner! An Imarflex electric mixer with a bowl and a stand. The mixer is removable from the stand, just exactly what I need. My parents are buying them for me when they go grocery-shopping around the 15th. :D (They insist on paying for it, anyway.)

Seriously, I can spend so much time in the home section looking at cooking/baking equipment, appliances and random containers or organizers.

***

It's not yet even mid-semester but we're already 66% done with the whole course in CE 155. I seriously wonder why my prof wants to finish the course so early.

***

Frustrating. Why do SOME guys prefer to just stand and talk, leaving the girls do the manly work, actually ALL the work? Kahit magparinig ka o humingi ng tulong... kebs lang. I don't mind working but at least everyone should do their part. Sa totoo lang, kung sino pa yung mga lalaking malaki ang katawan, sila yung tamad. Kung sino yung lalaking maliit ang katawan, sila pa yung laging nagtatrabaho. At kung feeling nila sila lang ang stressed dahil sa acads, aba mali sila. Buti nga sila, acads lang ang problema sa buhay eh.

Sabi nga ng mom ko, "wala na yatang gentleman ngayon eh". Sabi ko naman, "Ma, meron pa naman" dahil meron pa talaga.

Challenge

2009-08-02T17:08:00.003+08:00

"Have courage."
"Trust your intuition."

Now that's DEFINITELY a challenge for me.

***

I got home early last Friday. Well, compared to 11pm, 7pm is still early. Baked a cake and slept at 1am (because I still had to cool the cake so I can place it in the ref).

Saturday: Woke up at 7:30am. Left at 8:30. Reached Cubao past 10 to meet up with Kuyanyan, Ate Jin and Ate Tel. Epic traffic is epic. Left Cubao at around 10:30 and reached Sta. Lucia (UP AME acquaintance party venue) at 11:30. Acque was done at 1:30. Tried the bump car ride in Sta. Lucia. Went to Starbucks at around 2:30. Left Starbucks at 4pm. Arrived home with Kuyanyan at around 7:00pm. FUDGE 3 HOURS OF COMMUTE. SCREW THE RAIN AND THE TRAFFIC! Went to Airis's place for her sister, Eka's, birthday party at around 7:30pm.

Ugh. Isang shot lang ng gin, namula agad ako. Ang bilis ko talaga mamula. INSTANT BLUSH ON! Pero eventually, nawala naman na. Uminom din ako nung hinalo nila, pero konti lang. But no allergies today. YAY!

Today, Sunday: Slept at, probably, 3am (can't really remember). Woke up 11:30. Left Airis's place at 3pm.

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No class on Wednesday. It's not really something I'm happy about. One, I only have one class on Wednesday (in other words, hindi sulit). Two, the ES 12 review I'm facilitating is supposed to be on Wednesday. Their ES 12 exam is on Saturday already so I dunno when to reschedule the review. ;;_____;; Three, less allowance for me.

Ugh. But at least I can study all day on Wednesday. GE 12 exam is on Saturday and 155 exam is next Monday. Uguu... 155... my most difficult subject this semester. -_____-

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ANG DAMI KONG HOMEWORK. -_____-

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Too much stuff I want to tell people... maybe next time.

Thinking, Timing

2009-07-30T20:15:00.007+08:00

After 155 class, Jon (ESC Councilor and one of my CE batchmates) invited me to join the Engineering Marketing Congress. I was interested because matagal-tagal ko na rin yung nababalitaan. Kaso team registration siya and I was wondering kung sino naman ang hahatakin ko. LOL, kasi yung mga normal kong kasama sa Eng'g ay mga tipo ng tao na hindi interesado sa ganoon.

Ang nakakatawa, after ng 155, I went to the tambayan tapos tinanong ako ni Kuya David kung gusto kong sumama sa EMC dahil bumubuo siya ng team. Right timing, kung kelan naghahanap din ako ng makakasama.

Actually gusto ko talaga because I'm trying to get into extra-curriculars as much as I can for experience dahil last two years ko na ito bilang undergrad. Plus, I think I'm going to learn a lot from it dahil may series of seminars. Lalo na't hindi ako maalam sa marketing, etc.

Kaso lang huhu, ayun nga. Talagang sinisigurado ni Kuya David kung kaya ko. Five seminars siya na 5:30pm hanggang gabi. So uhh... late akong makakauwi at sana may kasabay akong pauwi. Huhu. Tapos aside from the seminars, syempre yung project pa. Yun yung pinakamabigat dun eh. Syempre, I have acads, ACADCOM ako sa Aggre tapos FAIRCOM din ako sa AME. So... ayun medyo sinisigurado ko pa ang sarili ko.

Ang maganda lang, the seminars are mostly on Thursdays and since 1pm ang first class ko pag Fridays, I can wake up late. :)

Oh well, I can always give up my unproductive hours on the internet for the EMC thing. Ayoko lang talagang maging impulsive kaya mag-iisip pa rin muna akong mabuti. Next week pa naman ang registration.

ファイト！

Keeping One's Sanity

2009-07-25T23:51:00.003+08:00

Uhh, I didn't come home last night. Went to Airisu's house with Kuyanyan after dinner at Landmark and Bubble Tea with Lolo Klaine, Pyor, Wigi, Earle and Kuya Peachy. Uhh wait, I DID come home for, like, 15 minutes just to leave my stuff and get some stuff because Airisu's house is practically just a long walk from mine.

I swear, I super missed AME. I miss Friday nights out. The last time I went to the tambayan was three weeks ago. I haven't gone out on a Friday night for so long. Busy with a lot of acads crap and some Aggre work. My AME friends always keep me sane (despite all the pressure from school and other things that make me insane) and I love them.

I told my dad I'd be home at 10am (so I can help him with house chores) but I got home at 2pm instead. I thought he'd scold me and stuff but when I came home, only kuya was home. Apparently, they went somewhere and left at 1pm. LOL. Nagmadali ako for nothing, LOL. When they came home, mom and dad were in a good mood and I didn't get any scolding (kinda). LOL. Well except that dad told me in his usual semi-scary-kunwaring-galit tone, "Anong oras ka umuwi? Diba sabi mo 10?" Oh well. LOL.

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In other news:

Medyo okay lang sa akin na inaaway ako o kaya ginagago ako. Well I do care but I don't care TOO much. I mean, USUALLY, I'd be angered by it and then I'll just let it go eventually.

But seriously, if this jerk screws up my friend, magwawala ako at sisiguraduhin kong the jerk will get what the jerk deserves. Strike two na siya eh. Sobra na.

Retract

2009-07-23T20:30:00.004+08:00

*insert long sigh of relief here*

Kung anu-anong iniisip
Panaginip na sana hindi ko na lang napanaginipan o kaya sana hindi ko na lang naalala.
Sobrang pagod at puyat dahil sa maraming homeworks, exams, lab reports, field work, etc.

Pero nakabangon na rin nga konti mula sa hukay kahit sobrang pagod, puyat, etc. (Hah, take that, Life!)

We got the CE 110 exam results this morning. Couldn't believe it because I practically crammed and I even unintentionally slept while ~~cramming~~ reviewing.
I was able to answer the CE 155 homework kahit hindi ako nakapakinig sa previous lecture (dahil sa sobrang antok).
CE 162 concluded the wave of three major exams this week. I have no exam until Tuesday. :D
I went to AME tambayan! After, like, three weeks oTL. Benn even gave me an Unohana Retsu gashapon! Thanks, Benn! oTL, I miss you guys.
I went to SM to find some clothes and ended up buying nothing. :) Yay for self-control. I've started to discipline myself to buy only things I need and things I really really really REALLY like. Actually, kuripot lang talaga ako, LOL.

Thank God for a happy day. I've been in a slump for quite some time until today.

May gusto akong sabihin:

Hindi na talaga kita ma-gets. :| At hindi ko alam kung anong gusto mong gawin ko o kung anong gusto mong mangyari.
Sa tuwing nalilimutan ko na yung bagay na gusto kong makalimutan, lagi mong pinaaalala.
Ayan tuloy, naiwan ka. Hindi ka kasi gumagalaw eh. Kung gumalaw ka man, paurong, hindi pasulong. Eh kung tutuusin, kayang-kaya mo naman sumulong.

Just Breathing

2009-07-16T17:58:00.004+08:00

I realized:

the last time I went out was when I watched Transformers 2. And that was because Roxanne had an extra ticket.
I haven't gone out with AME people since classes started. I wonder if I'll ever be able to hang out with them.
I haven't even dropped by the AME tambayan for, like, two weeks? I dunno. I don't want to become a rare/legendary pokemon but... my schedule is really just too harsh. :(

I feel:

like life is being sucked out of me.
like I'm a really bad person.

I have:

three major exams next week: CE 155 *shivers*, CE 110 and CE 162. To think it's only been a month since classes started. >_>
lots of homework and lab reports
to go to CE Talk on Saturday. That means less time to review. :(
not done any AME work since classes started. :(

I need:

clothes for Saturday. I wish I could go to Trinoma tomorrow or something.
to take care of myself. These constant body pains and headaches are NOT good.
INSPIRATION badly.
MOTIVATION badly.
to wake up earlier. I've been coming late to CE 110 class for three or four times now. And I don't like being late (nakakahiya kasi sa prof).

I want:

to eat ice cream (DQ).
to watch Harry Potter two or three times. I'll be watching with my family next Saturday (ugh, we we're supposed to watch this Saturday). Now I need someone to watch with me.
to see you.

Going Where

2009-07-10T19:46:00.004+08:00

Things I want to tell people:

Kung bakit ba kasi inaway kita. Ang sama kasi ng timing mo eh. Pero kasalanan ko pa rin... Kung bakit ba kasi inaway kita. Ugh. *headdesk* Guh my stupid pride. >.<>
I realized you're the type of person who can't stay still but you're amusing that way, Eternal Sunshine. XD And I really like how you'd greet me most of the time.
I don't know if I should feel sad for you but let me tell you something: you're missing a lot on life.
Just because you can't see it doesn't mean it's not there.
Someday, you'll get what you deserve.
I admit it, I miss you.

***

Argh. A lot of things are going wrong with me.

Lately, kahit sobrang pagod ako, hindi ako nakakatulog agad. Samantalang noon, basta pagod ako, paghiga ko, tulog na agad ako. Madalas din napuputol-putol ang tulog ko. :( I've never been like this before.

Hindi pa rin nawawala ang sakit ng katawan ko: mostly sa leeg at sa balikat. Halos araw-araw din masakit ang ulo ko.

My left thumb was aching terribly last night. I think that area is called the carpometacarpal joint (sa baba ng thumb). Because of the pain, I decided to go to sleep. Actually, I think it's been a year since this pain started. It's only occassional, though (not everyday). But now that I think about it, it usually aches when I make accessories (hold pliers, etc.) and when I type a lot.

Ugh and I think my three or four wisdom teeth are impacted. FFFF. I'm scared of dental procedures, seriously.

Oh Lord. I think I need to start taking multivitamins now, consult a doctor, get a dental X-ray from the infirmary and go to the dentist. Ugh, gastos na naman. :(

Ang Sakit ng Katawan Ko

2009-07-04T23:08:00.002+08:00

I made bentou for Numi yesterday. Wala kasi akong birthday gift sa kanya. [/FAIL] And I forgot to take a picture of the bentou. [/FAIL] -___- So stupid. Anyway, it had "ヌミ" spelled with sauteed carrots on top of white rice, flower-shaped sauteed carrots, menudo and a flower hotdog omelet.

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Laging sumasakit ang katawan ko lately. Kainis. Either arms, shoulders, hands, neck or right side of my back. Actually, I stopped using my Nodame shoulder bag when carrying heavy things because it gives me shoulderaches. Maybe I should start correcting my posture, learn how to pack light (my backpack has been quite heavy recently) and do some exercise. *sigh*

Hmm... at least katawan ang sumasakit, hindi puso. Ahahaha! o/

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Hindi na ako gaanong nagrereklamo dito sa bahay. Wala naman kasing nangyayari kahit magreklamo ako sa kanila -- hindi pa rin maka-penetrate sa kanila yung point ko. Bahala na lang sila. Feeling ko sila rin naman ang made-devastate pag nakakita sila ng singko sa CRS ko eh. Huuurrr...

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Ang hirap magpakabait. :\

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I want:

new muffin pans
custard cups (to make custard and creme brulee)
springform pan
electric hand mixer with dough hooks (for making meringues, icings, etc.)
2GB RAM
lunch box with divisions (for bentou)
twister fries
strawberry or melon soy milk

Must...save... ;;_____;;

Free to Dream

2009-06-30T19:20:00.003+08:00

I'm really amused by Engr. Luna's story a while ago in CE 162. He said that the UP Chapel (Parish of the Holy Sacrifice) was built in the 1960's. The contractor was D.M. Consunji (owner of DMCI, one of the biggest contractors in the Philippines) but he was just a young contractor back then. The design of the church was made by an architect who is a National Artist. The cross was designed by Napoleon Abueva (a National Artist). The paintings on the walls were made by some guy named Manansala (also a National Artist) and the marbles were designed by another National Artist (I forgot the name).

I was like, "Wow, ang bigatin naman ng UP Chapel, puro National Artists ang gumawa tapos DM Consunji pa."

And then my prof said, "Back then, they were NOT National Artists yet." And I was like, "Wow."

Kaya naman pala sobrang kakaiba ng design ng UP Chapel kumpara sa ibang mga simbahan. *A*

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Stuff I want to tell people:
-Hindi nakakatawa.
-Nasan ang pasalubong ko? Eto muna: nasan ka ba? Para ka talagang si Train Heartnet -- isang stray cat.
-Uguu... give me my personal space, will you?
-I miss you, and you, and you too! LOL.

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For the sake of recording my dreams so I won't forget them:

I had this really weird dream last weekend. I was talking to some of my female batchmates in front of the Eng'g canteen. I was facing to my left when I felt someone stood on my right. It was a friend I haven't seen in some months. We just said 'hi', I felt my friend leave and I continued talking with my batchmates. When we were about to leave, my friend got out of the restroom (the restroom is beside the canteen) with a change of clothes and then took me along. We went to some old cathedral in Manila. We went someplace else and my friend apologized for not watching Transformers with me, despite my invitation, because of some important stuff. And then I forgot the rest. LOL.

Oh well, my dreams are always weird anyway. D: